All About Me

5th December 2009

2009-12-04T08:56:00.000-08:00

Whoa! Can't believe that I didn't blog for like 2 weeks.
or is it more than that? Hahah.

Well,before I continue right,
in my posts shall be as colourful as the rainbow.
=D

Starting off with school life.
I guess everything's okay now,
since currently this is the last week of school for me,
as I have no mid-semester tests :P
Harhar!
But the past two weeks were the most hectic weeks ever.
I didn't get much sleep and all,
stayed up all day and night just to finish up reports and assignments.
I also screwed up some of my tests, but I guess that's part of life.
There were also times that I really broke down,
because there was just WAY TOO much stuff to do.
and it really affected me, A LOT,
in terms of the state of mind and my health.
And also now, I just found out that i'm the VP for the Open Source Club.
=.= More added work for me, argh!
Don't know how much more work can they pile me with.
But what to do, I just obey.
Obey like a freaking dog!

As for my social life,
let's just say that it's still the same old same old.
And i've got a confession to make,
i don't think i'll be planning to get a girl now.
seriously.
with my tight schedule and all, I don't think i even have the time to get myself,
a nice and sweet girl..
As much I have friends who are trustworthy and all,
I do have friends who are just being friends for fun purposes.
Treat me only when they are bored and all.
Only want just fun, and that's it.

As for this red section, are some things that I really have to let out.
And, I don't care if the person gets affected.
This is regarding someone that i was close to for 4++ years.

I don't know why, but now, i just feel that you have seriously changed.
YOU HAVE CHANGED, A LOT.
And i'm not angry at you just because you broke up with me.
trust me, i jolly-well got over it as it wasn't worth crying it for a very long time.
but just that, from a FRIEND'S POINT OF VIEW,
YOU treat me like a freaking stranger.
Not even a word of Hi or Hello...
YOU keep treating me as I do not exist.
But I can tell you this: I DON'T CARE.
Because I don't mind you ignoring me and all.
But, what I'm REALLY pissed off is that,
A GOOD FRIEND OF YOURS,
A CLOSE FRIEND you had from PSL until now,
WHO HELPED ME KEEP AN EYE ON YOU WHEN I WAS AWAY,
WHO ALSO ADVISED YOU ON CERTAIN STUFF,
YOU also ignored him as well.
YOU seriously let him down, because he really believe that you were one good friend to him.
Now you are like shunning your old friends away..
Treating us like some pieces of tissue..
Once already wet, THROW AWAY.

The bottom line is: YOU HAVE CHANGED!
For the better or the worse, I don't know actually.
I can't tell.
But i'm just pissed that you just shun him away.
And THAT FRIEND,
isn't me at all.

Well that feels so much better now.
HAHAH!
A big pain off my chest now.
I just needed to let it out,
and this blog is considered to be the medium.
=]

Anyway, will be away somewhere for 1 week.
Will blog about it as soon as I come back okay?
I'll promise.

18th November 2009

2009-11-17T10:02:00.000-08:00

YES! MY INJURED THUMB DUE TO SATURDAY TRAINING

My siblings' presents (majority of them are my sis's)

Cake made by my lovely mum! haha. NICE RIGHT!?

Fathimah & Adam =]

Goodness,
2am in the morning and i'm blogging.
LOL!

well, this is like the only time i'm free,
so might as well get a chance to blog ya?

Well, for the past two weeks have been kinda hectic lately.
And as usual, it's all due to school.
Well this term teaching thingy is seriously driving me mad.
There was one of the days that I broke down as the pressure was freaking high.
I hit my freaking boiling point.
GAH!

Apart from the busy school life,
family time is getting better,
with my sister's and brother's birthday.
and also, i treated them to some stuff.
Not gonna say it here, heh.

And also, my Aikido life.
Let's just say life's getting better with my two other bros,
Kris and Zi Zhao.
=]
In addition to the family will be Aini and Leslie.
HAHA!
but whenever i'm with them right,
all my troubles and stress with school are like gone,
just like that!

And also, an update.
I injured my freaking thumb.
So yeah!
it was all thanks to Saturday training.
hahahahah.
hope it heals soon, so that i can get back into action.

Lastly,
for my social life.
Haha, still the same old single guy.
Just find it hard to look for any more ladies.
So in the meantime i'll just have my friends around.
I'm like so not in a rush to go for a relationship,
ever since the last one.
haha!

3rd November 2009

2009-11-02T08:01:00.000-08:00

Wow!
It's already November uh..
That's freaking quick..

I haven't been blogging for the past few weeks,
mainly because of a lot of things that happened during that time.
Talks, presentations, projects, PR stuff..
Gahh..
Workload's gonna kill me, but what the heck.
It'll be worthwhile.

The last two weeks made me think through about my friends.
In my opinion,
I currently have two kinds of friends.

The first kind of friends are those who just befriend me for enjoyment,
but then "dumps" me when he or she finds me boring.
i would say these kind of people are leeches,
only know how to suck on other people's happiness only.
but when in times of trouble they'll just walk away,
pretending that they do not know me at all.
I DO HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE LIKE THAT,
BUT I'M NOT GONNA NAME THEM,
AS A FORM OF RESPECT.

The second kind of friends,
are those that i really respect.
Those who would actually be there for me in times of trouble,
don't even dump me even though disputes happen between us,
and most importantly,
they do not abandon me at all.

There are alot of my friends who are those second kind ones,
but the ones that I'm close to right,

I'm proud to tell you that these are my friends that are the second-kind:

My C200 Brothers in Cyber & Digital Security

Comments: My classmates since Year 1, and also at that time, we've been kinda bonded together (with the help of Mr Lim). Been through a lot of things together. And SHOCKINGLY, those that I thought who are not good, are good after all. =] You guys surely have a lot of surprises under your sleeves. And also, i'm proud that most of us are RHCT certified. Words can never express my happiness to you guys (not sounding gay or whatsoever ba). So i thank you guys for being the best classmates and buddies ever man. I'll write another comment on this class once we graduate ya? =]

My TP Aikido Club Mates!

Man, you guys are the reason why I love to be in TP, seriously! =] Everytime a week of school starts, i'll always look forward to training with you guys. And, Aikido never fails to cheer me up, no matter how down or pissed i am. Halfway through the training i'll confirm be in my true, cheerful self. I wish that this bond will stay forever and hope the club can still prosper ya??

AND FOR THIS GROUP OF PEOPLE, THESE ARE THE GUYS WHO ARE REALLY SPECIAL TO ME:

To Zi Zhao & Kris : AAAHHH! I've never found such good friends like you guys. You never fail to like brighten my day with jokes (zi zhao) and other stuff such as excessive whining by Kris. (hahahahah!). But it's actually these small things that really adds up to a fruitful friendship indeed. I really appreciate the help that you guys gave me, be it in training or in other stuff. I really wish we could be best friends forever and still see each other after our poly years. YOU GUYS ARE WHAT I REALLY CALL TRUE FRIENDS. I don't know how else could I repay you guys.

And note to you two : I LOVE YOU GUYS MAN!!! YOU ROCK!!!

To Weina: OBAA-CHAN!! Thank you for being a good and wise granny. Your advices that you gave me led me to a path which is actually right =] HAHA! and thank you so much for all the help that you gave me. I'm really in debt.

You three deserve my highest respect that I could ever give,
because you guys are like family to me.

Well that's all that I wanted to blog.
Heh!

Will blog again when I have the time.
Toodles!~

28th October 2009

2009-10-28T06:40:00.001-07:00

There's only one thing that i have to say right now:

I'm losing myself.

19th October 2009

2009-10-18T09:12:00.000-07:00

As for today,
it was the TP-SP Combined training.
Well it was fun training with them.
But one thing's for sure.
I was so damn high that i went 3 rounds of Randori.
haha.
Defended one, attacked twice.
Ate with the guys,
and then met up with my family at Eastpoint.
bought myself a new webcam (finally!!!)

A warning to all my friends (both Aikido and outside):

I'm gonna turn ugly soon.
Not in terms of appearance,
but my character.

I'm sorry.
It's for your own good guys.

16th October 2009

2009-10-16T06:49:00.000-07:00

3 more days to school.
AAHHH!!!

For this final week of holidays I promised to myself
that it will be the most unforgettable and enjoyable week ever.
And so far,
it's starting to come true.
the verdict will come on Sunday when i blog again,
provided that I'm not lazy enough to blog.
=]

On Tuesday went out raya with my Aikido family.
HAHA!
Seriously, the chinese peeps wearing traditional costume look so good!
Particularly to Kris (who looks more nyonya-like..reflects her Ah Ma-ness)
and Lin Quan (he really looks like some student who came back from religious class!!)

Started off at Aini's house wit the Mee Siam.
Comment: Mee Siam was nice, but spicy. HAHA! maybe because i was sick at that time, so i couldn't take spicy stuff too much. Excuses only..

Next was Azhari's house.
It was both a sad and happy occasion.
Didn't want to write about the sad part.
but the happy part la ehh..
found out some secrets..
certain THINGS that CERTAIN people are scared of...
WAHAHAH!
xD

Followed by my house.
One thing that I could remember was Aini eating 4 pieces of cake that my mum made.
HAHAH!!
she was like saying "SOOO DELICIOUSSS!!!"
hahahahaha.
also we played the Batsu game...
Punishment was the standard Nikkyo lock.
my mum was like "Eeyer..can't believe you people play this kind of game.."
LOL!

Last but not least was Ridzwan's house.
ate a lot of titbits there.

On Wednesday was my Hari Raya outing,
but this time with my classmates Jauhari and Nuruddin.
hahah
=]
Though it was 3 houses only,
but man it was sure fun.
ESPECIALLY JAUHARI'S HOUSE.

Army of Two (Xbox 360) + Jauhari's mum's Fried Rice & Sambal Goreng = WHOOO HOOO!!
hahahaha.

On Thursday was kinda screwed up at first.
Reason being is that I was really angry with my time-table.
My timetable on Thursday is from 9am to 9pm!
It hinders me from going to Aikido training.
Appealed for a shift of timing for my Contemporary French.
So gonna have to wait.
Haix.
Was in a very bad mood during the start of the training.
then slowly it fades off.
One thing's for sure,
Aikido can never make me have a bad mood throughout the training,
because of the people that i train with.

After training, rushed straight to Kris's birthday party (without Kris knowing that I was attending)
HAHAH!
But the most memorable thing that i can remember from the party was what her classmates got for her.
A WALKING STICK!!!

To Kris: Happy 18th Birthday in advance!! hahah. May your life be full of happiness. Hope you fulfill your wishes k bro? And, i would like to take this opportunity to say sorry if i say anything that might offend to hurt you when in the midst of teasing you (i've done a lot of it right?)

lastly, thanks for being a good friend/brother to me for the past one year man. Really appreciate it. =D.

Today,
went to school for a while, to give the freshmen some insight on their upcoming modules.
after that headed to Temasek Holdings to attended the SYC briefing.
Met Suresh, Min Jia, Harry, Khairi and Xin Ying.
hahaha.
and John was conducting the briefing with his jokes inserted throughout the duration of the briefing.
Went home with the guys.

Well that's about what happened.
As for my thoughts,

One thing is only bugging my mind right now : Aikido club.

Initially, my main aim was actually to build the bonds between the freshies,juniors and seniors.
Well, I guessed that was achieved.
However, during the course of achieving that aim,
our standard totally dropped.
I mean, though we do have the belts,
doesn't mean that we are of that standard.
I realised that after the recent grading,
when my own TP freshies got scolded by Sensei because they really sucked (honest opinion).
At that time,
I blamed myself for what they are right now.
It was my mistake.
Should have been stern to them from the beginning.
Guess I was just too nice.

And also,
I also realised that the standard of the Aikido club reflects on how well I led the club,
how I led the juniors,
how I led the main committee.
I guess something needs to be done now.

I'm gonna make the move now.
It's either you're with me or not.

7th October 2009

2009-10-07T05:14:00.000-07:00

2nd last week of holidays.
Now things are starting to pick up.

Been busy lately nowadays,
thanks to the NetRider competition.
so from monday onwards,
went back to school from 9am to 5pm.
kept revising my networking topics.
CCNA 1 to 4.

On Tuesday,
found out that Nenek Anjang passed away.
Innalillah Wa Inna Ilayhi Ra'jiun.

What made me shocked is that i visited her two weeks ago during Hari Raya.
She looked so fine when she was talking to my mum and the rest of us.
And when i asked her for forgiveness,
she told me to study hard and do well.
Then she kissed my cheeks.

Because of this, it became a flashback when my mum broke the news to me.

This morning,
went to Nenek Anjang's house.
Her body was brought from the hospital to her house.
I could see my 2nd cousins tearing.
Could understand that as they are much more closer to her.
Helped out with the bringing down of the washing equipment that was used to bathe the corpse before we wrap it with cloth.
Did the prayers, carried the corpse all the way to the bus.
And that was it.

I pray to Allah that she'll be fine.
=(
This is a sad week for me.

1st October 2009

2009-09-30T08:35:00.000-07:00

Time to blog again..

Before that,
wanna wish those kids below 12 a Happy Children's Day!
=]

For this week it started off with the Sports Club Sub-Committee Camp.
It lasted from Monday to Wednesday.

On Monday,
met up with Hime-sama to pick her up.
after that linked up with ZZ and WQ.
slacked in the SAR from 5 plus to 9 plus.
Since we had nothing to do on the first day,
we mainly had R&R throughout the night.
but we did train for a while.
In the wee hours of the morning,
me, ZZ and Hime-sama went to the track and lay down there.
to stargaze actually.
I was at ease looking at the sky,
even though there wasn't any stars.
But I was like in deep thought,
about some things..
slept at about 2++ am.

2nd Day
=====
Woke up at about 1030am.
ate at Biz Park, for the first time in my poly year.
hahahah.
the nasi padang isn't that bad after all.

Reported at the SAR at about 1230pm.
had a briefing about the afternoon games.
I was posted to the Wet Mats station with Kris,
plus the Judo bros, Shi En and Lambert.
HAHA!
i have to say,
we're the most sadistic and dirtiest bunch of station masters ever.
hahah.
SICK and DISGUSTING.
but seriously i had fun..
hope the participants did too!~ =]
And when we got back,
Kris and I smelt like crap!
seriously sia.
hahahahah.
thanx to Kris lah,
the special "ingredient" she made at the Wet Mats station.
but too bad,
karma caught up to her!! HAHAHAH! XD

At night after dinner,
we had some mingling session with the Judo peeps.
exchanged pointers with them on Aikido and Judo techniques.
I seriously think Judo is awesome man,
with their body throws and all!
They are seriously a bunch of nice guys..
I don't mind working with them again actually. =]

At about 12 starts the enduring phase.
The Night Race begins.
I was in-charge of the Rock Gym area with WQ.
and this game was supposed to last from 12am to 6am.
goodness!
the boredom and to wait for the teams to come down to my station.
i slept.

after that marks the end of camp.
it was over at 7am.
However, some of us continued sleeping in the SAR until 10am.
had lunch with those who stayed on,
me, Hime-sama, WQ, Grace and Zi Zhao.

sent hime-sama home,
picked up my sis from school.
reached home,
knocked out.
HAHA!

That was basically it.
Apart from that, I guess the camp wasn't so bad after all.
=D

27th September 2009

2009-09-26T10:05:00.000-07:00

Man,
it's 1am in the morning and i'm still awake.
HAHAH!!

Well, finally i had the chance to blog on what has happened today.
the main topic was basically on the recent event that i attended,
which was the HelloSecure@SG Secure Coding Competition.

For the benefit of those who don't know what is it about,
it's basically creating a website like Amazon.com or ebay.com.sg with security features,
such as encrypting your credit card number and prevent hacking to be done.

Well the competition started off on 23rd Sep, 8am.
went to NYP for the competition.
have to thank Nicholas Lim's dad for sending us there.
really appreciate it man.
When the competition started,
we had approximately 24 hours to do up the website.
so it was splitted up between two days.

Day 1
===
We went off with a good start,
as everyone was busy doing their own work.
To tell you the truth,
I was actually clueless on what I wanna do.
and same goes for some of my teammates.
So we kinda studied on what are we supposed to do,
in the midst of the competition!
hahahaha.
everybody starts to experiment and all.

Also, in the middle of the competition,
saw one group walked out of the competition.
Found out the main reason was:
They had no idea on the framework.
LOL!
What's worse. they were from NUS.
Well they could have at least tried.

Started coding at 8am.
Ended coding at 8pm.
HAHA!

When i went back home, my eyes were like bloody red!!
what's more, it was already 11pm by the time i reached home.
staring at the computer for 10 freaking hours.
GAH!!!

Day 2
====
Reported @ NYP at about 8am again.

and i learnt one thing during this day,
having macdonalds consecutively for breakfast, lunch and dinner is really sickening!!!

anyway,
finished up the coding and the GUI with my team.
hahah.
i kinda found out that the only time that you can see REAL teamwork in an IT competition is when it's the last 15 minutes to the end of the competition.
HAHAHAHA!
I could see my team debugging every single error that occured when integrating the GUI with the infrastructure codes.
hahahhahaha.
Ended at 8pm, feeling unhappy because of two things:
1) The website codes weren't hosted via the web server. It was still on Visual Studio 2008. [HUGE DEDUCTION OF POINTS]
2) Didn't get to code the payment gateway =(((((((

Went home.
=((

Day 3
===
This time, we reported at about 9am.
Had to present our website to the judges.
By that time, my team had the mentality that we won't be in the top 5.
because in the 10 teams that participated in the competition,
all of them are actually year 3s.
And we're the only team that has Year 1s and 2s together.
:-O
So we were just going in there for experience.
But,
when they announced that my team was in the top 5,
i was like "This is the biggest joke of my life!!!"
ahahhahaha.
my teammates were really laughing hard,
because they themselves couldn't believe it at all.
But when they announced the top 3,
we didn't win.

OH well what the heck..
I'm already proud that my team went into the top 5.
:D
It's an achievement i'd say.

And to those who supported me for the competition,
i would like to shout out a big thank you!!
=]

ありがとう　ございます　ひめ　さま!!!!! <3 :P

HAHAH! :P

19th September 2009

2009-09-18T17:59:00.000-07:00

Hey y'all..
It's been a while since i last blogged.

Well for this week it has been kinda hectic and tiring.
Thanks to competitions and all,
particularly the HelloSecure@SG competition.
On Wednesday went to NYP at night to conduct the briefing.
After that,
i found out that my team has a long way to go.
GAH!!

Honestly speaking,
i'm completely clueless for the competition.
but i'll just do what i can,
with what my team and i can do.
just do it for experience.
=]

And also,
Hari raya is coming!!!
WHOO HOO!!!
still gotta do a lot of stuff,
wiping the windows,
folding the ketupat,
and many more!!

WAHHHH!!!

But seriously,
can't wait to start hari raya!!!
hehehhhe.

7th September 2009

2009-09-06T10:40:00.000-07:00

Man, this blog has been kinda dead for quite some time.
Finally got the mood to blog =]

Well, as you all know,
holidays have started.
but for the first week of holidays,
been mugging all day for the CCNA4 Final Exam.
though it was painful all day,
at least Aikido training prevented me from going insane.
=]]]

On Friday had my CCNA4 Final Exam.
And Alhamdulillah!
I passed.
So I guess that's just one assignment that's lifted from me,
for now.
I still have loads more to do.

Then on Saturday and Sunday,
had the Zhenqishu Aikido Camp / Combined Training.
Training was great during the training,
except for the fact that I was seriously worn out thanks to the sun.
But i stayed on.
:-)
Spent quite some time with the juniors.
Guess i'm glad to bond with my juniors,
makes up lost time during the start of the year,
when they first come in.

Ever felt that you age faster,
even though it was only by a second.
heck, a second can feel like days passed.
Now i'm a Year 2 student,
next second i know I'll be graduating.
gosh i feel kinda old now.
=]

The next thing I felt like saying is regarding fear.
I was watching an old movie called "The Replacements".
though there were some funny parts,
but there is one particular scene that impact me

Everytime I hear the guy explain about the "Quicksand" concept,
I start to think about what happened in the past,
especially mistakes that I did.
Those mistakes were costly.
And i agree about what the coach said,

"You guys are given something that any other athlete dreams of. A second chance, and you're afraid to blow it"

That is what runs in my mind every time I do something.
Because I don't want to affect anyone.
I don't wanna hurt anybody.
I don't want those around me to start distancing themselves away from me.
I just don't want to ruin that chance.

It just make me suddenly go into deep thought when I think about it.

And one thing to take note about the "Quicksand" concept,
You're facing it alone.
And no one's able to help you.

26th August 2009

2009-08-25T18:40:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.
Sorry for not blogging,
was mainly because of exams.
Since now it's over,
might as well blog...

First off,
exams were okay.
Wasn't too difficult, and wasn't TOO easy..
just in between.

and also,
fasting month started last saturday.
and speaking of last saturday,
I had my 3rd Kyu grading on that day too!
hahhaha, with Kris of course.
:P
can't believe i survived approximately 1 1/2 hrs of continuous slamming and demonstrating of techniques + fasting.

guess all the hard work had paid off..

and as for the dream girl that i wanted,
let's just say it didn't came true,
BUT on a positive note...
we're still friends..
=]

17th August 2009

2009-08-16T09:11:00.001-07:00

Ah.
Finally.
All my semester's work have been completed.
What's left is only the exams.

This week,
was quite hectic.
But it was the last straw of work.

On Friday,
had to attend the Sunburst Tea Session with Prof Leo Tan,
the Chairman of STEP.
He is seriously one nice and humble man.
And met up with the old and new Sunburst scholars.
They are a bunch of funny guys.
And i think,
I'm the youngest in the group!
hahahaha.
most of them are like in Universities already.

Went for training on Saturday and today.
Haha,
honestly, i think today's training was kinda dry,
apart from the fact that we were training under the hot sun.
GAAHHH!!
but it was okay lah.

5 more days to my grading and fasting month.
4 more days to my first paper.
3 more minutes till i go to sleep.
2 more days till it's Wednesday.
And,
One..
Just one..
One chance to make it happen.

And she's pretty! =]

10 August 2009

2009-08-10T07:00:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.
Since today I'm in a good mood,
gonna put up some photos.
To be precise,
these are the photos of my past and present.

This week,
was much of a stressful week.
Project submissions are coming in,
and fast!
Gah..
and two more weeks will be exam period.

As for training in school, it was okay.
The aikido peeps ordered some pizza.
I initially declined to eat,
but then they were like pressuring me to take some.
HAHA!
in the end,
I did take 2 slices.
Thanks guys!
really appreciated it.

On Friday,
it was the only day that I'll never forget.
Since my aunt was going to depart from Singapore and back to the States,
my family decided to so-called "hang out" at the airport.
We were there at 12am.
And that was the most tiring day ever.
Walking here and there.
And what's even better is that my aunt's flight was actually at 5.40am.
GAH!!
I kept sleeping at weird places..
From the seats of the departure hall to the area near Cold Storage @ T1.
By the time we went home, it was 6.50am.
I was really worn out and knocked out right after i prayed.

Slept for 3 hours only because my cousin came down for tuition after that.
After that,
went for training @ Pek Kio CC.
Goodness,
that was the only time that I was about to faint any moment.
but the thing is that,
when you're really tired,
you'll start to do things even more easier,
and use less strength in your techniques.
guess that's the only plus point there is right now.

On Sunday,
had a haircut, thanks to my uncle.
Finally my hair's back to being short again.
i look damn messy with long hair.
And watched NDP on TV.
This year's parade was kind of better than the 2nd one.
haha.

Today was more of assignment day.
Completed my CMSK4 brochure and some filling up of application form for some competition my course wants me to sign up.
Bleah..

That sums it up for the week.

As for my life,
I don't know what's going on actually.
I don't know whether should I make the move or not..
I mean,
this has been going on for quite some time..
But..
Guess that'll have to wait after exams.
In the meantime,
all i can do now is just to support.. =]
Hope she does the same for me..
(=.=)

2nd August 2009

2009-08-02T08:08:00.000-07:00

This week wasn't that much of a bore..

School was kind of okay,
except for the fact that presentations are starting to bug me.
and i seriously need LOTS AND LOTS OF HELP IN JAPANESE!!!
AAHHH!!
I must do well in my Japanese studies!!!

On Friday there were two significant events that happened:

1) Red Hat Talk by CEO of Red Hat Inc. @ UniSIM

The talk was okay.
but what i was more fascinated was actually UniSIM itself.
I mean like whoa!
the school looks like JROTC Air Force School.
hahaha.
the Library is cool too!
=]
It would be nice if I get to continue my studies there after my NS.
but the thing is,
it's FREAKING EX!!!!
hahah.

2) Dialogue Session with Minister George Yeo (Foreign Affairs Minister)

Initially, I was about to doze off,
reason being that I'm very tired due to the Red Hat talk that was conducted in the morning.
It got off to a sleepy start,
but as soon as students start to ask questions,
it made me more awake.
Because,
the topic was on Leadership.
and all the points that Minister Yeo brought out,
it kind of reflects on what happened to me during my time of leadership positions back in secondary school.

But there was one line that he brought out,
that had an impact on me.
"There will be times when you need to sacrifice some things in the course of leadership",
or something like that.
I guess I have to agree on that though.

Because all my life I have devoted myself to my duty,
neglecting my family, loved ones and friends.
And that knocked me some sense.

My dad once said this:
"You may have all the riches in the world, and be the smartest person. BUT, what's the use of being wealthy and all if you don't even care those around you? Have you ever thought about it? That's why religion is important. It sets you guidelines so that you don't go astray"

My dad's kind of a religious person.
For me, I'm religious,
but I do commit sins (not those extreme ones).
Because no one's perfect is this world.
We all exist as bad and good together.
It's a matter of which side do you PREFER, NOT BE.

Apart from that,
nothing much happened.

Well, something did happen today,
during training.
but heck, it's common to get injured.
we just need to take care of the partners.

Well that's it for what happened this week.
I'm guessing that this new week will give me hell.
Well, bring it!

My life has a whole new meaning now.
But to fulfil that meaning will mean to take steps.
I guess just baby steps will do,
just to make sure that I don't fall off.
haha.

27th July 2009

2009-07-26T09:53:00.000-07:00

Can't believe that i'm blogging at about 1am in the morning.
hahah.

Well for this week,
it's been ups and downs for me lately.
the downs was mainly due to my projects and all.
damn reports.

NOTE TO SELF: NEVER, EVER DO PROCASTINATION EVER AGAIN!
IT SUCKS AWAY YOUR LIFE!!

and DARN IT!
I FAILED MY JAPANESE GRAMMAR TEST!!
ARGH!!

Never mind,
i shall buck up!
and for real!!
>=]

but for the upside is basically thanks to my Aikido family.
met up with Zi Zhao, Aini and Leslie at SAFRA Tampines to make our way to Pek Kio CC.
It was grading day for the other batch of white belts.

They did okay lah, in my point of view.
As a whole of the freshie batch,
they haven't met my expectations yet.
but heck, they're just kids.
they still got a long way to go.
what i only expect from them is just to stay bonded together,
through thick or thin.
and also, be good friends not only in the club,
but also outside.
=]]

and another note to self,
guess things got way better in life now.
Syukran alhamdulillah.. =]

20th July 2009

2009-07-19T09:00:00.000-07:00

Finally.
A time for me to blog.

this week has been kind of hectic,
thanks to school and all.
but i think the one that occupied me the most was the Aikido demo that was on Thursday.
Had to stay back on monday and tuesday nights just to train!
It was sure as hell,
one damn bad idea.
but it was worth it.
Mainly because everything paid off in the end during the actual demo.

On Friday,
went to SAVVIS Data Centre with Nuruddin.
it was kind of boring actually,
but come to think of it,
this is the first time i've ever stepped into an actual data centre.
=]]

On Saturday,
went for Pek Kio training.
Honestly speaking,
that was one of the most killer trainings ever.
my body was totally worn out,
in addition to the injuries i had for the demo trainings.
but heck, still continued with it.
Went home with Kris,
and with bruises too.
But i think mine's not that bad,
as compared to Kris's.
HAH!

Today,
Kolam Ayer training.
WOOTS!
First time training in the rooftop area.
so cool,
but so damn damn damn hot!!
we were like burning under the sun!
and,
ANOTHER DEMO!?
what's worse is that i was Sensei's attacker.
AAHH!
almost broke my neck when he did one of his techniques.
but phew, it went well.
Ate with the Aikido gang,
and went home.

Went out with my family after that.
Shopping for jeans and shirts.
=]
ate at Swensons!
man it's been a long long time since i ate there.

and that sums up what happened.

As of today,
it's a new life.
a new chapter.
a new beginning.

I found my reason to live now.

14th July 2009

2009-07-13T09:37:00.000-07:00

Woots!
blogging @ 12.39am.

Sorry that i didn't blog last week.
Was sooo caught up with my projects and all.
was quite stressful to be precise.

On Wednesday I had my Japanese grammar test.
I really really screwed it up.
Definitely i can't score high,
but i just hope i can pass.

Went for trainings as usual on Thursday, Saturday and Sunday.
This is mainly because of the upcoming demo that is on this coming Thursday.
gosh,
I'm kind of nervous myself.

And YAHOO!
My aunt from USA came down!
Was sooo happy that she came down!!
it's been like 2 years since i last saw her.
And she still looks the same.
haha.
and she still calls me the Mr Bean Kid!
because of my funny walks.
=]]

Also,
when i'm feeling stressed,
I guess a good game of Bluff will really make me laugh!
Especially when i'm playing with my bros.
HAHAH!

Yesterday,
had training at 7pm with my Aikido demo team.
HAHA!
feels damn weird to train in home clothes,
especially the slamming.
OUCH!
guess we did okay.
gonna do another round of training today,
but this time it will be in front of the library.
I really wish that all of us can do our very best.

And you know something,
there is this person whom I knew once.
The person was once a good friend, but left.
but then right when I met that person again,
that person isn't feeling happy of my presence.
It's like that person has been putting on a mask ever since
i knew that person.
It was like more of a lie regarding our friendship.

Initially I felt bad that this friendship was over,
but when I thought of it,
there is a bright side to it now.
And, I can safely say that everything was like fake from the beginning.
Now that really puts my heart at ease.
=]

I feel so much better now.

5th July 2009

2009-07-05T05:06:00.000-07:00

This week will be considered kind of stressful for me.
had to juggle alot of things,
such as my CCA demo and the Hacking competition,
as well as my studies too.
it feels like i'm back in secondary school.

On Wednesday came down to school for a while,
to attend CMSK4 lesson.
It was kind of important.
Then after that had to head off to Novotel Clarke Quay Hotel.
It was preparation day,
so Daryl and I had to harden (or in layman terms, secure) our servers that we need to protect.
After that headed to Plaza Singapura and ate dinner there.

On Thursday was the first day of the competition.
Met up with Daryl on the MRT and headed for Clarke Quay Hotel again.
From there we linked up with Brandon, Nicholas and Mike.
Ate breakfast,
and then headed for the ballroom where the competition started.
At first,
our servers were ALL down because they couldn't log into our PCs.
HAHA!
that's because we changed it.
But after that everything went okay..
The 1st day ended at 5pm..
we camped at Mike's house.
Now i know how small is an apartment in Temasek Green.
HAHAH! =]

On the 2nd day,
went there again.
To continue with the competition.
Daryl and I were getting damn bored,
because we don't know how to attack.
Even with the current database of exploits we have,
it's actually quite useless.
hahah.
so we just sat there,
and observed our systems with
Log files and sniffers.
I couldn't believe that I actually read all that.
hahah.

Competition ended at 5pm.
Daryl and I knew we won't be in the top,
but we defended damn well.
The winner was announced after the conference,
in front of top IT firms such as
IDA, DSTA, DSO and so on..
And,
Daryl and I got the "Best Defender Team" title.
Brandon, Nick and Mike got the Best Attacker Team,
AND WON FIRST PRIZE!!
WOOTS!!
kudos to them.

we celebrated by heading to school.
and all our lecturers were happy that we won.
hahaha..
guess it was all worth it.

Then on saturday,
went to Pek Kio CC to see the first batch of freshies graded..
Seeing them grade reminds me of two things:
1) Missed those times that I almost fainted during brown grading.
2) My GRADING TO BROWN-GOLD!! aAAAHH

heard from Kris that Brown-gold grading is just next month.
MY GOODNESS!!
that's freaking fast.
but yeah.

And to the freshies that graded,
I'm proud of you guys.
But, I expect you guys to at least help those who are going for the next grading.
Help one another and move up as a whole family.
=]

continued training at Pek Kio from there.
And unexpectedly,
Sensei Harry came down.
hahahah.
it turned out to be okay lah.
quite relaxed.
but was dozing off when he starting to do some "lectures" on the techniques.
haha..
but he's still one cool sensei.
went home after that.

Today,
went for Sunday training,
despite the injuries i got from yesterday's training.
it was okay in the end,
didn't strain myself.
=]

well yeah..
that sums up to what happened this week.
to tell you the truth,
i'm not even in the mood to blog.
hahahah =]

27 June 2009

2009-06-26T09:44:00.000-07:00

First week of term 2 passed.
It was kind of relaxed actually.

Anyway, for the past few days,
i was confined to the TP-IBM lab.
For what you may ask?
Well i was supposed to set up the following services:
- DNS Server (using BIND & TinyDNS)

--> if you don't know what this is right, try to imagine right now that when you go into the internet, instead of typing www.yahoo.com, you type the network address instead. HAHA!

- Web Server

- Repository Server (for database installation usage)

Goodness, it took me a long time, ESPECIALLY the damn DNS Servers.

I mean like come on man,
i know nuts about DNS (apart from the theory part on how it works)
but configuration and all that,
i'm like totally clueless.
that's why i took damn long.

Aikido training was okay,
just started in a pissed off mood at first when i reached the room (thanks to the bloody servers)
but then i just seem to forget about it.
and continued with training.
after that ate with the gang.
hahaha.

NOTE TO SELF:
buy the "kangaroo brand" Ginger Beer,
not the F&N version.
=]

Today had to attend the Sports Club AGM.
Theme was childhood days!
hahahaha.
i looked like an over-grown kid wearing berms and all.
HAHAHAH!

damn funny when i looked at myself.
ah but what the heck,
it's for the fun of it. =]]

Then went back home.

That's it so far for my life.

Now what i have to prepare is the following:
- SyScan Competition CTF '09 (1st July to 3rd July)
- Aikido Demo (16th July)

And about the crush that i posted earlier on,
let's just say that now,
it's no more. XD

ah what the heck.
i don't think there'll be any girl who would have a crush or liking on me,
AT ALL.

i mean like,
i'm a geek,
a workaholic,
and,
a joker at times.

That is me.
So, if any girl who does have a crush on me or whatsoever,
think whether you made the right decision to do so.

if you thought about it through,
and serious about it,
approach me and we see what we can do. ;-)

l--O--l

23rd June 2009

2009-06-23T08:04:00.000-07:00

Not gonna post about what happened today.

Instead, i wanna post the lyrics of a song that i'm hooked on:

Wonder by Megan McCauley

Midnight workings, weather down the storyline
I try to find the truth between all the lies
When Bleeding is feeling and feeling ain't real
Will I see you when I open my eyes?
Will I see you when I open my eyes?

When Breathing's a burden we all have to bear
And trust is one thing we're taught never to share
Somehow you just seem to shine
When loving means breaking and saying goodbye

(Chorus)
And I can't help but wonder what it is you do
You help heal the pain, and the thoughts of the truth
You're a question to the universe, a wonder to the world
And somehow, when I'm with you, I never get burned

Caught in a trap of what we're taught to believe
When night overcomes day, life's so hard to preceve
And the clock keeps on ticking through night-shattered skies
Where the stars are all broken, and so are all the ties
But the one thing remaining is you
When I'm broken and bleeding, you pull me right through

And I can't help but wonder what it is you do
When you help heal the pain, and the thoughts of the truth
You're a question to the universe, a wonder to the world
And somehow, when I'm with you there's nothing I'd rather do

Than be right there
To escape my own life and all my fear
And I cant feel
Am I really real?
Come and wipe all my tears
Come and wipe all my tears

And I can't help but wonder what it is you do
You help heal the pain, and the thoughts of the truth
You're a question to the universe, a wonder to the world
And somehow, when I'm with you...

I can't help but wonder what it is you do
You help heal the pain, and the thoughts of the truth
You're a question to the universe, a wonder to the world
And somehow, when I'm with you, I never get burned

22nd June 2009

2009-06-21T09:27:00.000-07:00

Goodbye to holidays,

and hello to school!

Sorta..

Anyway,

just gonna blog about what happened today and yesterday.

Yesterday,

went to Pek Kio CC for training.

let's just say it's make up for Thursday's training that i missed out due to camp.

Met the SP guys and Kris.

Like what Wee Ping said,

the normal training is just an appetiser.

the advanced training is considered the main course.

and hell, it was true!

hahah.

When advanced training,

we started off with a technique in rolling,

followed by nikkyo slam, sumi-otoshi (corner drop) and two hip-throws.

gawd.

really man,

those techniques kind of injured me badly.

and that wasn't over yet.

did iriminage,

but the kind whereby you see in steven seagal movies.

my partner was uncle tham.

both of us were going easy as first,

but as it progressed,

my body felt more and more pain.

and i pushed on, making myself even more serious.

and uncle tham was actually doing the same thing.

and we ended up so-called "killing" each other.

until the end.

and i have a mark at the neck area.

ate at United Square with the peeps and went home.

Today
=====

went to a wedding at bedok reservoir.

hahah.

it's been a long time since i attended a wedding,

mainly because i went for sunday training most of the time.

ate the food there.

2 servings to be precise.

and now,

school starts.

i wonder how the new term will be like now.

19th June 2009

2009-06-19T08:35:00.000-07:00

Heys.

Back from Spec Course Phase 3.

and my throat's feeling sore now.

hahah.

Well, Phase 3 was great!

Was assigned to Platoon 4, Echo Company.

Worked with Neil and Khalil from West District.

Well I must say,

they are an exellent group of people to work with.

There was setbacks during the camp though.

I lost my Crocs bag.

What's even worse is that inside it,

consists of my MOE Leaving Cert

and my Temasek Poly Portfolio (consists of my DHL cert, RHCT cert and so on).

Searched high and low for it.

but to no avail,

it was lost.

that made me so damn down for the past 4 days.

However,

things like firing the GPMG during the IGTS kept my mind away from it.

If you guys don't know what in the world is a GPMG, here's a pic.

Yeah,

i fired that (the computerised version).

Man,

it was seriously damn damn damn heavy.

HAHA!

Should have taken the M203.

Somehow among all the Spec Course Phases,

the third phase is the one that i'm more interested in.

Not just because it doesn't clash with any of my activities,

but also,

it's because of the cadets in this phase.

In phase 3, it is usually those cadets that are like the leftovers.

and in the eyes of the cadets, they feel that they are the hopeless bunch.

that's when we Cadet Officers come in:

to change that perspective.

As for my platoon,

though they may be not the best Specialists in the NCC organisation,

but to me they are.

i told them,

"Rank is what you get, Respect is what you earn"

Above all, respect is the most valued thing.

And as for rank,

most of them got 3rd Sergeants.

but heck,

I know they did their very best.

I'm proud of them.

And to be their APC,

it is an honour.

In the eyes of leaders,

I guess that's one difference between courses and recreational camps.

when in camps,

it's more of bonding between your camp mates and all.

But as for courses,

in addition to the bonding, you'll also feel a sense of achievement when they pass out of the course.

despite all the shit that you put them through.

in the end, it was all worth it.

That's only one thing i like about courses.

Because I change the lives of people for the better.

That's what I like to do.

Anyway,

when I stepped out of SISPEC on the last day,

went to TP to watch the Aikido Training.

haha!

everybody was suprised and started to salute me

as i was in No.4.

After that went home.

I guess that experience in Phase 3,

woke me up.

my angelic side of me.

=))

And you know what,

i'm still having a crush.

and it's on the same person again.

I don't know whether I should make the move or not.

Because she's having her own problems.

I guess I should wait then.

13th June 2009

2009-06-13T08:06:00.000-07:00

Well, those 3 pics are just highlights of the Aikido Camp

that was conducted from 11th to 12th June.

The camp actually started earlier for the comm. members,

on the 10th to be exact.

Was known as Day Zero.

turned out to be just an outing and bonding session with the seniors.

First day of camp,

starting turned out to be okay.

was running here and there for the stuff.

I ended up running errands and all.

In the afternoon training started..

Lasted all the way until 7pm.

The food was okay.

And also, did some stupid mistakes.

Second day of camp,

before lunch it went okay.

but then,

that's when everything went wrong.

cockups here and there.

but in the end it went okay.

Attended the damn ceremony with Kris.

After that was the debrief.

As expected,

got shot down by seniors on alot of things.

improper planning and all.

but it's okay.

part and parcel of learning.

From this camp,

I just knew the strengths and weaknesses of my committee members.

I know using the camp as a platform to evaluate them is risky,

but it's worth it now.

So to my committee members,

I know you guys have tried hard.

So keep up the good work alright?

No matter what the seniors say,

i'm still proud of you guys.

Humans are bound to make mistakes,

but these little mistakes are the ones,

that will make us turn,

into a better person.

8th June 2009

2009-06-07T10:03:00.001-07:00

And so it begins,
the two weeks of holiday-ing.

Yeah right.

In fact, it's packed with loads of stuff.
camps, courses and projects.

how can life not go through hell now.
but wait,
do i know the definition of hell?
i don't think so.

but on the brighter side,
i think i'm having a crush on one of my own friends.
i can't say anything more about my crush.
just that she has been a good friend, even though it's only a year since we've known each other.
=]]

but onto my holidays,
i think i'm gonna have hell week 1 and 2 respectively.
and then,
school starts.

There's no point me grumbling about my activities.
It was me who made the choice to take the path.
So, just live on with it,
and balance your time.

Anyway, for this week's set of events:

- Went for interview @ Temasek Holdings on the Sunburst Scholarship. Man, it's seriously one interesting interview. It was more of like a conversation.
- On Saturday, watched some of my buddies grading to brown belt. CONGRATULATIONS TO THEM!

And the most shocking thing,
today,
On a Sunday,
I,
WENT TO..
SCHOOL!

YES! SCHOOL!
I seriously have no life.

But yeah, went to school with Zhong Min to do the RHCT Teaching Material in the morning.
Came back at about 8++ pm.

It's like working hours.

the training course starts tomorrow.
and i'm reporting at the TP-IBM lab at 7.30am.

hope i can teach the participants well.

Note to self:
Prepare to endure alot of mental and physical torture.

And to Kris, if i had ever do anything that might have hurt your feelings or whatsoever, intentionally or unintentionally, I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorrry.

31st May 2009

2009-05-31T06:34:00.000-07:00

Week 6 of school.
Guess it's over for now.

This week,
it's kind of stressful.
All the submissions start to come in.
SADS,CMSK3.
LOL!
Also, the Aikido Camp, it's in two weeks' time.
and term tests' in a few more days.
Man, how time flies by so quickly.

On Friday helped out with the cleaning of the mats.
hahah.
Darn it that Kris.
she took a photo of me wiping the mats.
WAH, SO UNGLAM!
hahahaha.
then hanged out with the gang before i went for CCNA4 class.
We had plenty to talk about,
and crapped around.
LOL!!!

Went for Saturday's training @ Pek Kio CC.
Was the only TP person there,
but what the heck.
Guess i needed some time alone from the TP Aikido Club to train for a while.

And finally,
after so many months,
I met Qai.
it has been a while since i last met and trained with him.
Went for the normal and the senior training.
The senior training was the one that i learnt the most from Qai.
Talked to him about Aikido and life.
Even with a small conversation, i learnt a lot from him.
I thought whatever he talked about was crap at first,
but when we had the free exercise,
and he was my partner,
that was the time that my eyes were actually opened.

my mind was actually empty when doing the free exercise.
i feel like the calm breeze doing all my techniques..
Just relaxing and calmly doing it.

And the harmony between you and your partner,
I felt it.
Now i get the term of Harmony in Aikido.

I always thought that Aikido was more of strength and techniques.
But it's not, thanks to that unforgettable day.
Though some of my Aikido-mates do think that aikido is fluent,
but they end up doing things in a rough manner.
A classic example will be doing Randori.
Everybody is just charging to the defender,
and the defender fends off attackers like some street fighter.

And,
another thing that i have learnt,
is that the power of the mind is the most powerful tool ever.
And to be exact,
Principles.
"Practise what you preach",that's what Qai said.
If you believe in your principles,
you can do it!
No matter how big,small, short or tall that person is,
or even how bad or good your life is.
Principles will always be with you no matter what,
but it's a matter of how you practise it.

I guess that's about it for my life.
Wait,
i mean my new life.
Restart.
Renew.
Refresh.

A new life for me.

To my TP Aikido Club Main Committee 09/10:

It's only been a few weeks since we first took over. Though we went off with a rocky start, we persevered on. I know that I've made many mistakes as your Captain during the process, but you guys never fail to correct me. Also, you guys never fail to support me, be it in official business or even my personal problems. I just can't emphasize any further on how much you guys are valuable to me. I wish you all the best for your exams! And you guys are the 2nd best family ever! Love you guys a lot!

And to all my TP Aikido people, hope we could be one happy family and stay bonded!

24th May 2009

2009-05-24T06:28:00.000-07:00

Week 5 of School.
Just two more weeks to tests.
Man, how fast can time fly by.

This week was seriously packed with studies, CCA and SyScan Competition Preperation.
However,
75% was occupied with CCA stuff,
because i had to plan with my committee regarding the aikido camp.
Studies is kind of okay,
just that know i need to start reading on DBAS and LAIT.
Haha.

And yeah, as for social life updates.
well, now, i can safely say,
I let go of my ex now,
with my heart at ease.
Because i'm still friends with her.
=]]
It's already good enough.

Tonight, suprisingly i chatted with Syafiee, an old friend.

This was what he told me:

for now, maybe you should
just give up on love seriously
then change
cause then when you change, it's not for love
it's because you want to be someone better
and when the new you is here
maybe then wait for love or just let things flow.
and when you change,
people won't expect it
some might hate it, some might love it.
but dude once you do, YOU HAVE LIVED LIFE
and not lived for love.
love will be there any time
but time won't.
you have the time now to do awesome things bro.
heck, go get a degree in your akido
beat people up using akido
whatever dude,
just enjoy and smile bro.
-Quoted from Syafiee -

Now i can really say,
I can push on for my life now...
=]
GO HAMZAH!

17th May 2009

2009-05-17T08:39:00.000-07:00

Life goes on as usual,
but with a twist now.

Things start to pick up pace,
especially school.
A lot of things are coming up, particularly the following :
- SyScan Competition
- TP Aikido Camp (Hope the proposal goes through)
- Term Tests!!
- Specialist Course Phase 3 (NCC)

so now,
my life starts.
No more comfort zones.
It's just me in a freaking bullet train,
dashing all my work and all.

And also,
this is the time,
when my mind will start to be strained and all.

but hey,
i always have people who are there to back me up,
telling me never to give up.
My family,
my classmates,
and not forgetting,
my TP Aikido Family.
=]

AS for events,
nothing much happened.
just that on Saturday, i had to attend the Director's List Ceremony @ the Auditorium.
Guess all those painful times,
staying up late studying and doing projects,
wasn't gone to waste after all.
hehe.
But this means that everyone will expect me to do better,
and if i can,
they would like me to be the next Lee Kuan Yew Award Recipient.
I pray to God that I can get the award.
=]]

After that i attended the East District BBQ..
glad to see the guys and girls again..
my seniors and all.
and, happy birthday to Zachary, Zul and Nursimah!
hahah.

Today,
had training at Kolam Ayer CC.
And guess what??
saw the SP peeps!
WOOTS!
Haikel, Yi Liang and Jasmine..
it's been a while since i saw them.
At least got to train with Haikel for Ikkyo..
gave him a hard time..
but we sure did have lots of fun..

Then, saw Siau Tian's grading for 2nd kyu (black belt)
haha,
congrats to him man!!
=]

ate with the family,
talked and gossiped as usual.
haha.

I guess that's it..

10th May 2009

2009-05-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

This week was okay at the start,
until Thursday.

In the morning had SADS lab.
Wore the RedHat T-shirt with ZM.
hahah.
Big deal, we're just technicians.

I was kind of pissed off when i saw most of my classmates
taking the same topic as I am for my SADS case study.
So, I had no choice but to take 3 topics instead,
and combine it to one system.

Then had Aikido training after that..
When i was setting up the stuff,
saw Aishah (my ex's friend).
just said hi, and talked a bit.
and then continued.
But somehow i coughed..
and drank a lot of water..
must be the weather i guess.

Then had training as usual,
this time with the freshies!
it was fun teaching them =]
suddenly, after training,
i found myself on the couch,
having a very bad headache,
and my body is freaking hot!
it feels like i was burning inside.
When i took out my thermometer and measured my temperature,
38.5 DEGREES CELSIUS!
THIS IS THE MOST HIGHEST TEMP I'VE EVER GOT.
it was freaking scary.
Luckily Imouto-chan called for her dad,
and he sent me back home.
I really thank her a lot!

どもありがとうございます妹ちゃん!!

The most torturous session was night time,
when i wanted to sleep.
I couldn't because of the body temperature.
I couldn't even close my eyes.
It felt like I was sleeping right on a campfire.
Even though there was a cold towel on my head,
it was of no use.
I almost wanted to tear.
Every hour i had to wake up..
So just imagine..
I started sleeping at 10pm.
and every hour until 8am,
i woke up.

On Friday,
went to the Doc.
got my medication.
but going to and fro from the clinic was a pain.
my body was totally aching..
and walking with aching muscles was seriously hell.
and not only that,
my mum and my younger bro now is sick.
before that, my granny and my younger sis is sick.
only my dad isn't.
So on Friday and Saturday i was mostly recuperating.
resting and all.
didn't do anything.
just ate some food, medicine and sleep.

Today,
got my haircut from my uncle.
my head feels much lighter now.
hahah.
and my temperature subsided,
from 38.5 to 36.9.
alhamdulillah syukran!
but the cough is still there.

That's about it.
Just hope i recover quickly before nxt training.

3rd May 2009

2009-05-03T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.

Not gonna blog much about what happened this week.

Just that on Thursday,
the TP Aikido freshies came in.
they are actually not bad after all.
i see them to have lots of potential.

Today was also the same thing,
some of the freshies came down.
they do learn quick.

yeah.
That's what i can blog about my events right now.

As for life,
well let's just say that i guess it's getting better.
but, i just feel weird.
even though i'm academically-well,
i still feel weird.
i know it has been two months.
i got over her already.
i cut off all ties with her so that she will forget me.
besides, she already regard me as some stranger.
the way she gave me that look when she saw me during the TP CCA Recruitment Drive 2009.

and about that crush that i had posted recently,
i changed my mind.
because i don't think i even have a slight chance.
found out that she's interested in older men.
oh what the hell.
being friends with her is good enough.

a friend of mine told me not to stop giving up on love..
but from the way i see it,
i don't think loving someone out of my family and relative circle isn't possible anymore..

now,
i have no one to really confide in all my problems.
it's true that you can tell your friends and family about it.
but then,
there will be this special someone,
whom you have given your love to,
to lend you a shoulder to cry on,
to hug you when you need one,
to give you the strength to go on when you feel like giving up...

right now,
i just feel that after i enjoyed being with the light,
i fall into this dark pit.
and i can't come out..

And i wait..
and wait.
for a hand to reach out and pick me out of the darkness...

that's what i'm feeling right now..

26th April 2009

2009-04-26T06:15:00.000-07:00

New blog skin.
Nice?
to me it is.

1st Week of School
==============
It has been one tiring, hellish but then yet a fruitful week.

For the first few days,
was acquainted with my new subjects.
SADS - Linux stuff. RHCT does help alot, but it only covers 90% of the subject. So still gotta study.
WWNK - Wireless & Wired Networking == CCNA2 & 3. hahah. it's fun actually.
DBAS - DBIS but now the security version. GAWD!
LAIT - Legal Aspects of IT.. Goodness, It's actually a LAW Subject! KRIS, I NEED YOUR HELP, SERIOUSLY!
Essential Japanese - Speaking japanese as usual. But then, have you ever seen an Arab writing Japanese Characters? LOL!
CMSK4 - More on presentation stuff.
APEL4 - Final APEL lesson. =(

The subjects look okay, except for LAIT and DBAS. it sounds kind of tough, but what the hell!
i'm gonna go through it.

From Wednesday to Friday,
had the TP CCA Recruitment Drive 2009.
I just would like to say thanks to all those who came down!
AAHH!
you guys rock!
Then on Friday night,
participated for the TP Wheelbarrow Challenge.
AND OMG!
I was on TV!
Most of my friends told me that via MSN on Saturday night,
including my cousins!
Stayed over at my granny's house from Friday to Sunday.

On Saturday,
it was my late grandfather's death anniversary.
so we did a prayer for him.
i kind of miss him actually.

Then today,
had Aikido training at Kolam Ayer CC.
HAHA!
Body's totally worn out man.
Went for senior training as well.
I seriously need to start working on my free exercise.... =(

Well that's about it!
Now i'm off to do my homework.
LOLZ!

20th April 2009

2009-04-19T09:22:00.000-07:00

Goodness..
it's 12.30am and yet i'm still blogging at this hour.
haha!

Well,
this week has been kinda stressful,
pretty much because of the RHCT stuff.

FYI,
i had been going to and fro to the Temasek Building at Shenton Way,
from 9am to 5pm,
reason being for the RHCT Training and Exam.
Training was conducted from Monday to Thursday.
And the exam itself was on Friday.

For the training,
it was okay,
quite knowledgeable too!

The more nerve-wrecking one was on Friday.
Exam.
AARRGGH!
The exam has two parts, troubleshooting and installing RHEL on the PC.
The troubleshooting part was easy.
But for installation,
ARGH!
I cocked up.
*sorry but i can't say what happened because it's confidential*

I was seriously emo all the way,
even when i got back home,
having the mentality that i'm goin to fail.
So i kept checking my mail,
and 8.30pm,
the result was sent.
AND...
I..
PASSED!!!!!
YOWZA!
ahahaha
That was the most happiest day of my life.

On Saturday,
tuitioned my cousin on her A Maths.
Goodness i'm getting rusty at it,
Integration.
LOL!

At the same time I was customising my new lappy to be brought to school.
YAY!
Though it's a bit heavy,
but it's okay.
I can live through it.
=]

Sunday,
went training at Kolam Ayer.
AND FINALLY, I WENT WITH KRIS!
haha.
trained until 11.30pm.
After that went to Tampines Int to meet up with the Aikido committee to discuss matters regarding the CCA Recruitment Drive.
So yeah..
That's about it.

I've decided,
not to wait for her anymore..
Now, i think i have a crush on someone.
Someone that I only know for one freaking year.
GAWD!
it's someone that i least expected to be...
but i'm not gonna tell her that i like her,
because it's just a freaking crush.

besides,
she herself has a crush on someone else.
so i don't stand a chance.
heh.

Life goes on..

12th April 2009

2009-04-12T06:30:00.000-07:00

Before I carry out with my post,
I would like to wish :
HAppy 18th Birthday
to Fiza and Faz.
May they lead their lives happily and may
God bless them on this day. =]
Amin.

Well,
to start off for this week :

Monday
--------
Went to school for Hacking lvl 1 training.
But before that,
Me, Zhong Min and Sheng Qiang met Mr Lim Chee Yong,
about the CCNA4 revision class during the semester.

Tuesday
---------
Came down to school again to study RHCT.
read the book for a while.
but after that got sick of it.
hahah. Studied Python language instead =]

Wednesday
------------
In the morning attended the Sports Leader Camp.
didn't really mingle with the other sports leaders,
because i didn't really have the guts to talk to them.
they all look so damn senior sia.
haha, went off at 3.30pm.
went to East Spring Sec for NCC training for a while, then went off to get my things.
Went to HQ.
And damn i was late for the rehearsal.
thank god haven't start.
Stayed overnight there with the colours party.
and i realised alot of things went missing!!
AAHH!!

Thursday
---------
The real deal!
57th Cadet Officers Course Passing Out Parade.
it was freaking tiring ah.
drilled from 9am to 4pm.
Then went back to bunk to prepare the No.1 Uniform.
Man it's been a while since i last wore it.
Well it was fun being the East District Ensign,
even though my right arm is in pain.
But hell yeah I did okay.
WAIT, Not I,
WE DID OKAY!
57th POP Colours Party.
Glad to have served with you guys.
Attended their performances, especially the CLT one.
HAHA!
Honestly, Shimmy looks sexy sia!!
LOLZ!
Have to confess la ehh..

I went back to stand at the parade square again.
It was empty.
Just me alone.
Staring up at the sky,
with the moon so bright.
It made me think of those times that I was an NCC cadet trainee for the 54th.

Friday
------
Nothing much happened.
hahah.

Saturday
---------
Went out to HQ again, for NCC East District Meeting.
Met the 57th batch peeps.
FINALLY, MSG SHIMA FROM PRSS IS A MA'AM!!
hahah.
and as usual, DC gave a speech which slowly turned to a lecture.
GOODNESS!
WEnt out with my family after that at White Sands,
followed by Eastpoint,
and finally,
my granny's house!!

Sunday aka Today
-------------------
Went to Faz's house to pass her my present.
Hope she likes it =]
Anyway,
went for Kolam Ayer Training!
Jasmine, Haikel and Karen were there..
haha.
I kind of injured my hip actually,
thanks to that black belt guy..
man,
i mean i understand lah you want to show how practical,
but then ah..
at least have the courtesy to at least take care of your uke for god's sake.

Went to Queensway with my uncle to buy shoes.
yes ah!
I bought a pair of trekking shoes.
LOLZ!

Well that's about it.
gotta sleep early tonight.

Tomorrow is the starting of my Red Hat Certified Technician Workshop @ Shenton Way.
9am to 5pm.
Wish me luck guys.

5th April 2009

2009-04-05T07:50:00.000-07:00

April..

The official start of my new life..

For this week,
nothing much happened.

On Monday and Tuesday,
stayed home.
I was doing either the following :
- Getting a glimpse of RHCT by reading the RHCE book i borrowed.
- Watching youtube videos on Aikido (Definitely most of the time)
- Playing BlackShot @ Garena (New free First-Person Shooter!!Try it out for those who have Garena)

Wednesday,
went to HQ for the Colours Selection!
AND YAY!
I got to carry the East District Flag!!
WOOTS!
=]
Gonna draw out my No.1 Uniform on Monday.

Thursday,
had Aikido training.
but before that i met up with my new committee..
urm, only some of them lah,
because some are not around.

Friday,
went to school to initially meet up the SAA guy with Siau Tian.
but then it got cancelled.
so went there to meet Nicole for a while,
and haha.
she's changed as in looks.
but still looks the same if seen from far.
hahaha.

Today,
went to Kolam Ayer training as usual.
HAHA!
Had one hell of a time training with Aziz =]

Well,
in terms of my life now,
i've decided to let her go.
i realised that i don't even have a slight chance of getting her back anymore,
even though i do want that to happen.

bet she's now with some guy already..
what i can say is that..
the guy better take care of her..

29th March 2009

2009-03-29T05:57:00.000-07:00

This week was kind of enjoyable actually.

Started off with the training at NUS on Tuesday.
Trained with the NUS Shoshin Aikido peeps.
Noticed that most of them were white belts.
but who cares?
it's a matter of learning.
Belts are just considered as a sign of promotion,
in your efforts of what you have learned in your Aikido days.
But one thing that I learnt from that training,
is that NEVER EVER LOCK YOUR ELBOWS.
I got so called scolded by Sensei Harry when he was showing to my partner on how to do,
and so I grabbed him.
And the next thing i knew was that Sensei Harry whacked my elbows,
telling it to bend.
HAHA!
But it was fun anyway.

On Wednesday was my NCC training at school.
AND FINALLY!
Arif Mustafa came down to training!
WEEE!
Our senior Jun Long came down to give a talk on Army life,
his experiences as a OCT and his training in the Guards unit!
WHOA!

Thursday,
SP-TP Combined Aikido Training.
FINALLY we trained somewhere that has shelter.
but LOL!
Sports Hall?
It was as humid as hell!!
We were sweating bullets when training.
And I have a goal,
TO BRING DOWN JASMINE!
God, seriously she's damn hard to bring down sia when i practised with her.
But the best one was Free Exercise!
As usual, my SP partner in crime, Haikel!
LOL!

On Saturday afternoon I had dinner with my C200-mates at Seoul Garden!
MAN, i'm seriously a total noob when i went in there.
because it's my first time!
the food there is nice.

Then today,
in the morning I had training at Kolam Ayer CC.
Was basically more of the basics..
but it's good to have that kind of training once in a while.
refreshes your memory.
Went back and ate lunch for a while,
and headed back to Kolam Ayer CC again.
Had to practise for the Martial Arts Showcase near the Kallang River.
Did the Bokken kata.
It turned out to be okay.
And you know what,
i noticed that Sensei usually talks to me in Chinese.
HAHA!
But it's okay.

Well that sums up on what happened this week.

And,
I just can't get my mind off her,
no matter what.
Wonder if she already did..

23rd March 2009

2009-03-23T06:52:00.000-07:00

It's been almost a week since the break-up...
I guess she has moved on in her life,
might as well I move on to mine.
but should i wait for her?
that's the question i'm pondering over right now..

Well, yesterday i went to my Aikido training @ Kolam Ayer..
Man i missed training!
Haven't seen Sensei and the guys for a while.
Too bad Kris isn't here..
guess she's having fun training at Shanghai.

Well training started off with warm ups and lots of rolls.
and then first technique is iriminage,
but with loads of variations..
next up was Ikkyo from Katatedori (Wrist Grabs) positions.
and the rest i couldn't remember.
i know that i end off with Kokyuho.

after that I attended senior training.
HAHA!
went hardcore.
but TOO hardcore until i sprained my ankle..
haha..
doing Koshinage. WEE!
But finally it was free exercise..
I think i have to thank 4th ADC for getting my stamina back.
because i lasted longer than usual.
hahaha.

Today,
went to Eastpoint to send my Sony Ericsson W890i for servicing.
HAHA!
thank god it's still on warranty.
then after that bought some fruits for my grandma!
hahahahah..
but there's always a reason for it..
asked her to massage my sprained ankle..
haha.
honestly speaking,
she's the best grandma ever to me! =]
After that picked up my sis at her school.

Now,
life just goes on.
I think she would also want me to move on in my life too.
I know she still cares and loves me.
but now it's not the right time.

20th March 2009

2009-03-20T02:01:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.
Gonna post about what happened during 4th ADC now.

Firstly I booked in HQ on Sunday night,
and met up with Ain, my Platoon Commander.
I was given the position of Section Commander for Section 3, along with the following people:
Jumari [Sect 1]
Khairi [Sect 2]
Sabiruna [Sect 4]
Clarence [Sect 5]
Shima [Platoon Sergeant]

Went through what will happen for the next 4 days and so on.
Slept at about 12am.

First Day
=======
Woke up at about 6.30am.
Had to go there earlier because the trainees are to report to HQ by 7.30am,
but there are SOME ppl who are kiasu,
come as early at 7am,
or even earlier like 6.45am.

Platoon 3 was the platoon that i'm assigned to.
they are serioiusly a great bunch of people,
especially my section 3:
- Alfian
- Alan
- Rasyidi
- Rasyiqah
- Bernard
- Brandon
- Imran
- Samuel

These guys are really an obedient and dillegent group of people.
And they're always open to new knowledge.

But we started off with a rough start with them,
shouting and scolding them.

Everything went okay,
but a funny incident happened.

I accidentally knocked out in the learning terrace.
Then,
from what I heard from the other trainers is that,
Warrant Mathi came in.
He ordered those who slept to do 20 push ups.
But I didn't wake up.
He kicked me and even threw a bottle at me,
but I didn't wake up at all,
until somebody said "Bom meletup " (Bomb is exploding)..
Then i opened my eyes slowly.
The only thing that I heard is that Warrant Mathi asking me to do 20 push ups.
But I thought he was just joking and said "Encik don't joke with me lah encik"..
then slowly he increased to 40.
So, in my unconscious manner,
I did the pumping, but 2 only, followed by 2 sit ups.
HAHAH!!

Day 2
====
Woke up at 5am.
Got ready for PT.
Started off with warm-ups..
Then ran for 1.5km.
Man,
running in the morning is absolutely refreshing.
And so the rest of the day was all drilling and marching with my section.
Had AAR at night.

At that night,
I received a message from her..
She said :
" I think that we should be friends from now on "

I was really shocked at first,
was on the verge of crying to be exact.
Well, I did tear a bit.
The times that I spent with her,
and the sacrifices that I made for her,
wasn't really gone to waste.
I believed that she did this so that I could explore the world.
She cares and loves me.
I do feel the same way too.
Guess life still has to go on,
but my loyalty to her still remains.

3rd Day
======
I think among all the 4 days of the ADC,
the 3rd day is the best as we get to do sword and colours drill.
WOOTS!
It's been a year since I touched the sword and the poles.
But at least I still got the touch though..hehe.
Taught to my section on how to do the drills.

In the evening,
me, Khairi, Clarence and Sabi..
we tortured the 5 Section Best Cadets.
Me, Clarence and Khairi took charge of the physical torture.
Whereas Sabi took charge of the psychological torture.
Man,
she's good when it comes to psycho-ing the cadets.
Scares the shit out of them when we told them that they are being Out of Course-ed (OOC-ed)
But actually all of them passed.
HAHA!

4th Day
=====
Graduation Day for the Cadets.
The trainers had to wait in the Learning Terrace.
In that time,
the trainers tried to sabotage each other
by taking them down
and do weird things..
like pinching them and so on.

They targeted me,
but I avoided it, thanks to Aikido training.
But I almost killed Hezwan!
Man,
I felt kinda guilty.
but he's okay now.

Then graduation ceremony had started.
Had to don the cadets the lanyard..
As Alfian was my section best,
I purposely kept his lanyard in my pocket.
I donned everybody's lanyards else except him.
He was so scared shitless.
HAHA!
So i donned him his lanyard too, when i took it from my pocket.
HE was like "What sia sir??"
=]

And the kids had a good time throwing me up in the air..
but i think i'm a bit too heavy..
because when it was the 2nd throw,
they were like squatting down when they received me..
hahahahha.

Well,
4th ADC was a memorable one for me..
Apart from the funny and sad stuff that happened,
I think it turned out okay...

Now,
off to my work.
SEE YA!

4th Day
=====

15th March 2009

2009-03-15T01:18:00.000-07:00

15th March..

For the past two weeks, i have been going to school, to and fro.
Last week went down for the Introduction to Linux.
For this week, had CCNA3 revision and finally the exam.
The exam was okay,
i passed.
But then i still need to do the assignment for the CCNA3 in order for me to move on.

On Friday,
went to East Spring for the Annual NCC March Camp.
But at the first night was the NCC Alumnite.
HAHA!
Got to meet up with the old-timers,
such as Jun Long who just ORD-ed on 13th March.
A lot of people have changed.
Showed a small appreciation video for them..
Hoped they liked it.
Stayed overnight there.

The camp was okay lah,
except the enthusiasm of the cadets.
And i think the camp's kind of boring.
But for my side,
at least i get to bond with my specialists and the cadet officers,
and not forgetting the seniors.

Today,
went back home early to pack up my stuff for the camp on the 17th March.
4th ADC.
but gotta book in by latest 8pm.
haha.

well, i will type more on the events on what happened during 4th ADC.
Till then, take care to all.

And to her,
do take good care of yourself alright?
When all of this is over,
I will be with you again..

8th March 2009

2009-03-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

And so ends the first week of March..

Well supposedly my holidays have started.
However, I got called back to school because of my AISP Student Chapter Group.
Being called back for this week to attend the Red Hat Linux Training programme.
Seriously, i think Red Hat Linux is damn cool!
you guys should try it sometime,
instead of being soooo used to Windows and Mac.

On Monday to Wednesday was the TP Aikido Chalet..
hahaha..
It was okay lah..
I RULE MONOPOLY MAN!!
hahas..
i brought dear along with me on the 2nd night.
well,
we had fun didn't we dear? ;)
And to the TP Aikido peeps, especially grace and kris,
thank you for making my girl feel welcome.. = ]
really appreciate it.

Anyway,
on Saturday was actually the grading for brown belt.
only kris and i are going through the grading.
but there were some of the seniors who came down to support us!
THANKS GUYS!
brown belt grading lasted for one hour.
but in the midst my partner elbowed me to the head,
thus giving me concussions.

after grading went to siau tian's house.
WEE!
I love NARUTO NOW!!
hahahahaha.
seriously fun sia..
RASENGAN!!!!!
and suddenly,
i experienced low blood in my body,
thus making me damn weak!
damn!!
didn't eat lunch i suppose.

then today,
went for Sunday training.
hahaha.
it was more of senior training instead of the normal one.
learnt new stuff today,
like gokyo and juji-garami!
it's so cool.

well for now i'm totally injured.
left wrist is bruised.
shoulders ache a lot.

c'mon hamzah..
this is only the first week..
two more weeks and i'll be through..

1st March 2009

2009-03-01T06:26:00.000-08:00

Yahoo!
Hurrah for holidays!!
whoopi doo!

And also,
today marks the first day of March.
wow!
Time really really flies by that quick huh?

For this week,
i shall start off with last Wednesday.
Went down to my school training,
in No.4!
and man, it's seriously tight.
gotta get it changed.
Anyway,
i trained some of my Specialists in some aikido drills,
like back falls and slams!
haha.
it's for their bodies to be more durable.

On Friday,
went down to HQ for the Cadet Officer Forum.
got updated with a lot of stuff,
such as Camp STEEL (Part B Leadership Camp) and so on.
after that,
Cohesion Night!
It was nice to see some of the old and new officers back.
but then the bonding part a bit bored.
the so-called "Clubbing" session started after that.
it was ok ok lah.
didn't know how to dance.
hah.

Saturday,
went to see some of the TP ppl graded.
congrats to those guys!
on thursday they're gonna receive the gold strip.
wow!
mine's like gonna come soon, in 6 days' time.
=(

Sunday,
went to Kolam Ayer Training.
it was okay lah,
as we finally trained in the badminton hall.
LOL!

25th February 2009

2009-02-25T04:50:00.000-08:00

finally exams are over!
=)

but it's not over during the holidays as this is my list of events i need to attend :

1) TP Aikido Camp @ Pasir Ris Chalet – 02/03 to 04/03 [NOT OVERNIGHT]
2) Linux Training @ TP-IBM Security Lab – 02/03 to 06/03
3) Aikido Training – 05/03
4) Aikido Brown Belt Grading – 07/03
5) CCNA3 Revision Exam – 09/03 to 13/03
6) Aikido Training – 12/03
7) NCC Annual Unit Camp – 13/03 to 15/03
8) NCC 4th Advanced Drill Course – 16/03 to 19/03
9) Aikido Training – 22/03
10) CCNA3 Exam – 24/03 (1000 HR)
11) Aikido Training @ NUS – 26/03
12) Aikido Training – 02/04

BLEAH!
there goes my holidays!

but at least it's worth it.

To all those who finished their main exams,
or those who are about to finish,
happy holidays..

22nd February 2009

2009-02-22T07:05:00.000-08:00

STUDY.
That was the word of the day for most poly students.
As for me,
Mugging is seriously hell,
even though it's just freaking 3 subjects.
BECAUSE,
i have no idea what to study!
LOLZ.

Came down to school on wednesday and thursday to study with dear.
had some remedial to attend.
And goodness,
I can't believe i studied from 10am to 5pm straight.
hahah.
but with breaks in between of course.

Friday,
first paper i had to face was OOPG (Object-Oriented Programming)
IT was difficult actually.
but it turned out alright.
gave myself a good break on that day and on Saturday.

Saturday,
tuitioned my cousin on her A Maths.
Differentiation!
WOOTS!
my favourite chapter to be exact,
because it's easy..
at the beginning part only.

As for today,
WENT FOR AIKIDO TRAINING!
YAY!
it was fun training,
though i did get injuries such as a back injury and a bite from someone *hint hint*.
-_-"
But then during training,
I just realised how weak I am actually.
Honestly speaking,
I was actually shaking when I raised my hands up to do the defensive stance.
and my movements,
it is not as sharp as last time.
I just realised that age is catching up on me.

I just feel so weak physically.
My energy is starting to deteoriate.
What the bloody hell is it happening now?
Why?
ARGH!

But,
is it enough to protect..
the ones you love and cherish..
the ones who got your backs whenever you're in need of help..
the ones who will always say "Don't give up, keep on moving"..

And also,
that special one.
my one and only dear.

Am I able to defend them?
from any form of danger..

And you may be wondering,
why do I even bother to protect these people..
Because I respect them,
I care about them,
and I honour them with my friendship.

Not like some idiots who just takes my friendship and trust as a bloody joke.
and thinks that my freaking loyalty is to only what i'm active in.
well to those bastards and bitches,
SORT OFF!

*To those East cadet officers in HQ who critise me ABOUT MY LOYALTY*
IF YOU FREAKING THINK THAT I DON'T CARE ABOUT NCC,
YOU'RE WRONG YOU F***ING RETARDS!
YOU GUYS DON'T EVEN KNOW MY SITUATION.
YEAH, YOU GUYS CAN CONTRIBUTE A LOT BECAUSE YOU GUYS ARE DEDICATED TO NCC,
BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT THOSE WHO CAN'T MAKE IT CAN'T CONTRIBUTE TOO.
ISN'T THAT FREAKING UNFAIR?
AND I'M NOT JUST STUDYING FOR THE SAKE OF STUDYING.
I'M STUDYING FOR MY LIFE, MY BLOODY SURVIVAL!
AND I NEVER,
EVER
BETRAY SOMETHING THAT I'M FREAKING COMMITTED TO.
SO DON'T YOU FREAKING QUESTION OR EVEN DARE TO F**K ME UP BECAUSE OF ME BEING MIA DUE TO STUDIES.
ALSO, DON'T YOU EVEN F***ING DARE BRING IN MY AIKIDO TRAINING INTO THIS!

if the paragraph above does not concern you,
don't read it.

only a few understand how my life is truly like.
the reasons on why I'm studying like mad until I got like GPA of 4.0 during Sem 1,
the reasons on why I'm actively involved in my course activities and Aikido..

I guess that concludes my post for today.
pardon me for the offensive language that i used earlier on..
I just need to vent it out,
to relief myself from this tension.

15th February 2009

2009-02-15T03:45:00.000-08:00

Hey!

Firstly, to wish all Singaporeans,

a Happy Total Defence Day!

haha.

and, happy belated V Day to those who celebrated yesterday.

hahahaha.

i didn't.

what for?

well,

for this week,

it wasn't stressful as the past few weeks.

submissions are already over.

thank goodness!

Today's training was the most fun session ever!

Why you may ask??

Because we had a randori session after training.

a short one..

hahah..

this is a short video that we took. =)

and,

i love you my darling honey! (This goes to my beloved GF and no one else =))

8th February 2009

2009-02-08T07:31:00.000-08:00

8th Feb..
goodness me.
how time flies.

Now,
i'm soooo hooked onto the song Nobody by Wonder Girls.
K-pop group!
they look hot. =]

Anyway, this week was actually great.
Submissions are already done..
now what's left is only presentations,
presentations..
AND..
presentations..

Finally, Aikido training resumed on Saturday.
hahah.
thank god!
missed the guys whom I trained a lot!
not just in TP,
but also the others too.
it was fun.
after training,
went out with the gang at Starbucks!
hahah.
the Hot Chocolate sucks sia..
i think they are much more better with coffee..
went off at about 6 plus.

Then,
as for today,
went for Kolam Ayer training.
Hell yeah!
IT was seriously fun to the core.
Had randori and free exercise..
thank god i haven't lose my touch! =)
ate with Kris, Pang Yao, Wen Qiang, Lin Quan and Poncho (hehe).
went to granny's house.

Guess it's already gonna be a short post..
because my mind isn't in the mood to do long ones actually.
hahah.
and,
HAPPY 4 YEAR 2 MTH ANNIVERSARY DEAR!
=)

2nd February 2009

2009-02-01T09:17:00.000-08:00

wow!
it's the month of february now..
that's quick.

well, for this first part of hell week,
settled the SAS submissions already.
Japanese and French roleplay is good to go.

nothing interested happened lately anyway.
basically stuck at home doing my work.

and man,
seriously.
I miss aikido training alot!
It's making my body starting to lose its touch.

27th January 2009

2009-01-27T06:32:00.000-08:00

wanted to blog on sunday,
but i just had too many things to do.

anyway,
to all my Chinese friends,
i wish you all a happy Chinese New Year.
Gong Xi Fa Cai!

for last week,
what i can remember is that it was the last Aikido training @ TP for the meantime,
due to Chinese New Year.
also,
the next day i had my Japanese and French test.
They turned out to be okay..
=]

The best day would be on Sunday,
when i went to my granduncle's house at Geylang.
woots!
i finally had more information regarding my family tree..
lol.
and it's complicated!
and also,
my grand uncle showed to my cousins and I some journal articles from the 18th century.
it was written by my ancestors.
The writings, especially the cursives, they look so so cool.
=)

anyway,
on monday stayed overnight at my grandma's house @ Simei.
the only routine thing that i did was,
eat, do project, sleep.
hahah.
worked all the way till 2am.

today,
woke up at 11am.
had a haircut by my uncle.
Thanks!

Well that's about it.
and i just changed my blog song.
=]

I miss Aikido training..
I miss my girl loads...

18th January 2009

2009-01-18T06:08:00.000-08:00

hmm.
today was rather violent.
you could call it "Bloody Sunday",
but it wasn't bloody actually.

went for Kolam Ayer training this morning.
suprisingly,
Haikal, Jasmine and Karen from SP came down.
lol.
and there were lots of people who came for today's training.
in addition,
the dojo seemed a bit bigger..
hahahahah.
that's because they took out ALL The mats!
whoa!

the training was okay at first,
but when sensei started to do the slamming techniques..
holy crap,
all hell broke loose.

Siau Tian had concussions...
Nafees was hit on the head via a knee..
me getting slammed multiple times, hitting the ribs and the back,
as well as the left calf muslcle...
WITH MILK!

hahah.
the guys should know what i'm talking about.

after that,
went to Eastpoint to eat with my family.
goodness,
i ate like i never ate before.
A plate of chicken chop PLUS
Fried Kuay Teow Cockles.
DAMN!
hahahah.
i was seriously hungry due to training.

then went home.

so far,
most of my assignments are all done and submitted.
CMSK3 draft, Japanese Roleplay Script and SAS use-case narratives.
did my parts.
so i actually had saturday and sunday to finish it all,
and had a good rest.

well,
looks like tmr i'll be going to Senior Training @ UOB.
damn.
and alone too.
haiz.

17th January 2009

2009-01-17T06:10:00.000-08:00

sorry i didn't blog for the past week.
was really really really damn stressed.

anyway,
about last week,
the only thing i can highlight is this:
TP OPEN HOUSE 2009!
hahah.
it was great lah.
working with seelan, joe and din.
=]
but it really was tiring,
standing from 10am to 5.30pm

here are some of the pics:

Yeah,
that's what I WANT to highlight about last week.
because the rest of the week is just,
stress.
stress.
stress.

felt like dying actually.

anyway,
just got the photos for the aikido training @ TP last wk and this week.

here are the photos.

Sensei doing Shihonage on me

Kotegaeshi slam by Siau Tian

Suwari Waza Ikkyo. YEAH! Kris got pwned! =)
:P

haha.
those 3 are my favourite pics.
=)

well that's about it.

today was nothing much,
just that i continued with my daily assignments.
completed some of them so far.
now waiting for approval from the teachers.

4th January 2009

2009-01-04T06:23:00.000-08:00

another week of school has passed..
well,
so much for school.
it's like only 1 to 2 hrs of school per day at least.
some days didn't have any school at all..
yeah..

On Friday I had my CCNA2 test.
Alhamdulillah,
I passed.
then went to take a break with Joe and Nuruddin.
hehe.
RAMBO BEBEH!

Saturday and Sunday was considered as my break period.

For Saturday,
had to tuition my cousin as usual.
Linear Law.
hahah.
back to graphs again.

And at night,
watched Ip Man with my dad at home.
HOLY CRAP!
THE MOVIE IS AWESOME TO THE CORE MAN!!
Wing Chun.
Stylish martial art.
Even though it's developed by women,
but damn it sure kicks ass!
hahah.

Today,
Sunday training.
This time, with most of the TP students coming down.
it's fun lah..
seeing all TP mates training.
After that,
continued on with senior training.
GAWD,
I was totally out of control and fatigue when free exercise with Uncle Tham.
damn it sia,
really hate Koshinage.
When it was my turn to be Nage (defender),
it was like damn difficult to stand up straight.
and i was on the verge of death, to be honest.
Ate with the gang after that.
Kris met her mum and brought her to us.
hahaha.
honestly speaking,
they look like siblings.
=)
about the same age lah.
as in, the mum is of the same age as her.
HAH!
:P
then went home.

Well yeah, that's about it.

I got 2 personal messages for my following brothers/sisters-in-arms in Aikido :

1) Siau Tian

Yo bro! I seriously can't believe that you're gonna go for black belt grading man! Haha. I wish you all the best, and keep on guiding us man! I think you and your batch have done a good job so far, even though the outcome of my batch wasn't what you wanted it to be. =) But yeah, you just gonna have to live with it. It's okay, you got me and Kris as your wingmen.

2) Kris

HEY HEY HEY! Can't believe that we're already blue-gold sia! and we're going senior training. hehe. Well, just wanna say that you've been a good moral supporter in terms of aikido for me, bugging me to go for multiple training and all. You might be the most pain in the ass rival that i've ever faced in my life, but still you're a good and responsible friend. Live up to what you wanna be and be thankful of what you have. Till then, our main objective is to pull our batch standards together now, BUT without compromising the family ties between all of us. =) And you know what? I think you might make a good sensei yourself. you just need to be patient and tolerant enough to teach your students.

1st January 2009

2009-01-01T01:21:00.000-08:00

To all those who say that 2009 is a good year,
Happy 2009!
May you have a good life ahead.

as for me,
it isn't a good start for the year.
got bombarded with work.

yesterday went to school to send my report to Miss John.
i'm really shocked when she said that,
she just make sure that our work is considered as pass,
that's all.
What the **** man.
i was really pissed off.
i mean,
i'm here trying to do my very best in my report,
and she just rates it as just pass??
and I'm completely demoralised when she say that i'll FAIL my report if i submit that draft.
HMPH!
guess i can't get a A or even a Z for CMSK now.
just hope to get at least a B.
AT LEAST.

then CCNA2 is coming up.
ARGH!
i'm studying like mad man!
and it's like hell ah.

Now,
I JUST FEEL LIKE DYING!
DIE!!
AAHH!!

28th December 2008

2008-12-28T07:27:00.000-08:00

last day of holidays..
haha.
so much for a freaking holiday though.

anyway,
this week was nice.

Monday was considered a double threat.
had combined training at Singapore Poly.
it was great,
except for one bugger,
who eventually twisted my left arm and wrist,
supposedly doing the shihonage slam.
had phobia of being done that technique ever since that fateful day.

after that,
went for senior training @ UOB building near Century Square.
suprisingly,
i enjoyed the training.
because the techniques learnt is something so new.
yeah.

on tuesday,
went over to my granny's house.
gosh i seriously missed her.
haha.
it's been WAY TOO LONG since i last saw her.
and as usual,
food is readily available there.
but due to the weather,
i started to fall sick.
haiz.
sickness lasted all the way to saturday.

Saturday,
had to go to school for some student helper training for the Open House.
lol,
but ended up just presenting about our project,
and went off.
however,
me, joe, jeremy and seelan went to the arcade to slack off for a while.
WHOO HOO!!
I can safely say this :
YOU MUST TRY THE GAME RAMBO AT THE TIMEZONE ARCADE @ TM!
haha.
it's because the weapon used isn't the Ingram Mac 10,
but it's a sub-machine gun.
AND HOLY CRAP,
THE RECOIL ROCKS TO THE CORE!
hahahaha.
seriously,
me and joe looked like Spec Ops Soldiers when playing it.
just missing the camouflage uniform, that's all.
=)

Today,
went training at Kolam Ayer CC.
this time, i went alone.
already used to being the only TP bugger going there.
suprisingly,
Sensei kept teaching us iriminage,
but of different attack forms.
gosh.
and SUPRISINGLY AGAIN,
i was damn tired!
and to top it off,
free exercise was conducted at the end of the training..
i seriously couldn't think.
my mind was really going bonkers,
due to the sickness actually.
but it was okay.
ate lunch with sensei, that brown belt guy again (damn i didn't ask his name), Yong Xin, Zi Jing and another black belt lady.
hahah..
had a long talk with sensei about some stuff,
like about my uncle,
and also about TP.

when i came back home and turned on the news,
i was shocked.
because of the Israeli jet strike @ Gaza.
200 dead and counting.
Some think that Israel and Palestin are on the edge of war.

And,
the new year is coming.
Yet violence still lingers.

I know that this really does not concern me,
but why do they have to resort to violence?
All this unnecessary bloodshed and killing,
what for?
Why can't they just resolve in a peaceful manner?

If only I had the power to just stop this madness..

That's for my personal opinion on the world right now.

As for myself,
I just feel that all those around me are starting to be further away from me.
Maybe it's just me, thinking that I can't catch them.
Or maybe it's because....
it's meant to be that way?

Only God knows..

Now, I'm just left in a dark alley,
waiting for a bright light to appear,
and I can roam the streets like I used to.

21st December 2008

2008-12-21T05:56:00.000-08:00

First week of holidays.
Isn't much of a bore really,
because i had to study for CMSK2.
each day cover about 2 to 3 chapters.
-_-"
no life to be precise.

thought i could use this opportunity to see her,
but then when i'm free,
she's away.
and when she's free,
i'm either away or busy.
haiz..
god.

Well, as for aikido life,
YAHOO!
i got my gold strip now.
hahahahaha.
looking forward to the brown belt next.

Yesterday, went to the East BBQ @ East Coast Park.
Got to know the 56th Cadet officers.
They are a nice bunch of people.
hope to work with them soon.
reached home at about 10pm.

then today,
had Aikido training.
somehow, today was actually a combination of normal training and senior training.
YES, SENIOR TRAINING!
why, you may ask?
because suddenly we were learning counter-techniques of the basic techniques,
such as Iriminage and Ikkyo.
lol.
and to end it all off,
we had randori training.
this time, the defender goes against the whole class.
man, it was fun being the defender.
but as the attacker,
damn!
my right knee got injured.
=(
hope i can recover by tomorrow for SP training.

I'm so fired up to go to SP,
because I wanna train with them..
and if possible, kill them.
=)

15th December 2008

2008-12-15T07:42:00.000-08:00

December 15th.
man, it's already the middle of the month.

out of the randomness,
i started to think back about the past.
from primary school till now.

Primary school..
There were bad times during that period of time.
but there were some people whom i say,
are truly friends and worth remembering them :
Kai Ling..my best friend in pri sch since pri 6. lol. but now i rarely got to contact her because she's studying in Australia now. it's been 2 years since i last saw her. =(
Brandon.. my table tennis partner, which happened to be in Temasek Poly IIT school with me as well. hahahh =)
Mdm Wong.. an old teacher, but a good friend too!
and also, MR ZAF!

Before i knew it, secondary school was the next phase for my education.
And, in secondary school was the one that moulded my character the most.
also, memorable friends like :
- Hafizah --> A good friend of mine for 4 years. Looked out for each other like siblings.
- Qing Ling --> MY STUDY BUDDY! hahah.. missed those times that i had to spend hours with her on the phone, just to go through chemistry questions. lol!
- Nabilah --> haha. The diagonally-backseat partner that i like to annoy.. also the introduces the Shut-up face theory to Madam Noreha.
- Fuad, Syafiee, Arif M & R and gang --> nice bunch of fellas.

In terms of school life, I really created a sense of identity, not in academics alone, but contributions in NCC and PSL.

In the NCC, these guys are the ones who i feel made me who i am :
- Mokthar --> Even though me and him don't get along much, but i do learn some things from him.
- Naszerul --> A true soldier.
- Arif M
- Akmal
- Huda
- Raudhah
- Raihana
Without them, I think I couldn't lead the unit, as the USM of the school.

For PSL, it was great actually! I don't really get the idea of why the school wants to shut us down now. It was these people who made me loyal to PSL too :
- Shahril
- Kevin
- Fuad
- Fazleena aka my darling.

Also, teachers such as :
- Madam Noreha
- Miss Sakinah
- Mr Khan

These guys were really great teachers. even though they had a hard time teaching, but still it was paid off. =)

AND NOT FORGETTING, MY LOVELY DEAR! haha.. really missed those times when i head to the park near the school and spend time with her, sittng down on the bench and watching the greenery together. We would just sit there for hours.. but the catch is just the mosquito bites.
poor dear had to endure it. but it's worth it right dear?? =) Muacks!

Then after O levels,
I took the liberty of continuing my service in the NCC as a Cadet Officer.
yeah, 54th baby!
the sweat,
the agony,
the pain.
i guess it was worth it.
but among all, what made me remember about it the most is the Passing Out Parade.
The Donning of Ranks ceremony.
I still can remember my parents helping me to don my rank on my No.1 Uniform.
I'm proud to be called a cadet officer.
Because i still do believe in those values of the Corps,
from Sec 1 until now.
even though i'm not as active as bsefore,
my loyalty still remains.
and no one has the right to judge my loyalty.

And finally, Temasek Poly.
yeah!
The first event i attended was the Freshman Orientation Camp.
GOD!
WE WERE WACKY AS HELL!!
all the participants there were high.
A-C-C, A-C-C, A-C-C Are you man ah, are you man ah, are you man ah, A-C-C!
woots!
all of them were great!
and it so happens,
that my gf was there too!!
hahahah!
wee!!

As for my course,
Cyber & Digital Security.
yeah,there are only 2 girls.
i do feel sad a bit. (i'm being a typical guy okay?? =) )
but why a bit?
because i already have my sexyback darling!
hahah!

My class,
C200.
Stop and Stare.
i tell you,
they are most wackiest guys ever.
People like :
Cleve
Jeremy Chan
Jauhari
Seelan
Nuruddin
Alan

man, these guys are nice friends and brothers.
we don't have girls in our class, not to mention.
so we got some male bonding going on.

And also,
my aikido gang!
hahahah.
They are a nice bunch of peeps.
People like :
- My rival Kris!! HAHAH! This lady is no longer tough i tell you. She sustained too many bruises.
- Siau Tian Senior. Hope to be as skilled as him, or if can, better.
- Grace aka Imouto-chan. Haha, a funny but cute lil' kid. Some may find her weird, but then if you know her, she's actually a nice friend.
- Wen Hon, my weapons 'Sensei'. Seriously speaking, he's gonna surpass me in weapons because he knows way more than i do.
- Don, the smart guy. lol. Always challenging me with some riddles.
- Diyana aka Kakak (due to her age). haha!

I do sometimes feel sad,
that I missed those days when I recall.
The good, the bad and the ugly.
I really am glad to met these people in the course of my life,
especially my dear for she is my special one.

I really thank all of you,
for contributing to the stories of my life.
If not for you,
my life would have been....
just...
meaningless...

14th December 2008

2008-12-14T04:05:00.000-08:00

whoo hoo!
finally the break's here.

Well,
i don't really want to comment on the test papers though,
because i kinda feel that i screwed up some of them,
like for example,
SYSTEM ANALYSIS.
but overall,
i hope i get to maintain my grades.
because this semester's subjects are tough.
even though they are only 3 subjects,
but the weightage is about 7 subjects..
haha.

anyway,
on friday i went to NCC HQ to help out in the 56th Cadet Officers' Course POP.
What's my job you may ask??
CARPARK DUTY.
hahah.
well, it beats the hell out of nothing.
suprisingly, i found out that some of them are actually good cadets whom i met during ADC or in my school or even a friend's best friend.
Iylia - my twin. haha. people really thought that me and him are brothers. lol
Sabiruna - LOL! My ADC 08' groupmate. CONGRATS for being the valedictorian.
Hafiz Bacon - YEAH! good job man! congrats.
Fatin - small but deadly.haha.

congrats to them on graduating from the course.

had some food to eat.
and some people rubbed it in that i came for only this event,
because of other committments.

It's not that i don't want to.
I just don't want to compromise my studies too much.
If i do have free time, I will help out.
AND DON"T YOU BLOODY DARE SAY THAT IT'S BECAUSE OF MY CCA.
IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS.

well anyway,
today went for Kolam Ayer training.
SORRY KRIS FOR MAKING YOU WAIT!
haha.
i woke up late.
VERY.
late.
training is okay lah.
i'm getting more and more immune to slams now.
haha.
was talking to Kris about some stuff after training,
such as Sensei rushing our batch to go for brown after 4 months.
haiz.

well that's about it.
see ya.

Note to self : I do miss my dear right now.

6th December 2008

2008-12-06T06:25:00.000-08:00

This week has been totally crazy.
day by day,
i slept at latest 12am,
and wake up about 6am.
and i get really really really tired.
get fatigue easily.

anyway,
on friday,
had my japanese and french test.
japanese was okay.
just screwed up a few questions.
french was a bit of a no brainer,
but it did test on what i read in the slides.
hahah.

and today,
was GRADING!
whoo hoo.
met with my gf first before i met the rest at Tampines Interchange.
just spend some time with her before i don't get to see her again for quite some time.
after that,
ate at Mac,
then made our way to Pek Kio CC.

Grading was definitely great.
Even though it wasn't as many as last time during the white belt grading,
but the feeling was spectacular.
suprisingly, i didn't get so tired like last time.
maybe it's because i toned down a bit.

After grading,
it was training again.
trained with this SP guy (i forgot his name again)
his iriminage right,
i can feel it sia.
he is pretty strong.
AND YES AH!
finally, weapons training was actually bokken practice.
did combat bokken with Jerry.
i was totally blur..
T_T
But i thank Kris for teaching me after class.
THANK YOU!!
I OWE YOU ONE!
and also,
THANK YOU SIAU TIAN for the Kokyuho technique.
=)

and had a mini-randori session.
KRIS did her SIGNATURE MOVE AGAIN.
and the ukes are Don and Jeremiah.
Jerry cracked me up the most sia.
Don and Kris was like charging at me.
Well, Jerry charged alright,
in the OTHER direction.
HAHAH!

after that,
ate at Burger King with them.
but,
i just feel incomplete.
because it's not the whole Aikido family here.
haiz.
sadded.

went home with Don and Rasyad.
hahah.
we were playing this game,
whereby we had to solve a phrase.
The one that i'm thinking right now is :
"Prove that a pebble is not a stone".
Gotta think out of the box though.
damn.

and yeah,
that concludes my week.
and as of tomorrow onwards,
i gotta start studying.
somehow, i have the mood to study,
and my brain is open for knowledge now.
hahah.

Side Messages
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- Oh my gosh! It's gonna be my FOUR-year anniversary with my dear in 2 days' time.
=)

- Kris, you're a good Aikidoka. but, you're too tense up. I know it's hard with your character, but then right, if you are able to relax, i bet you that you can learn faster. There's just too much stuff in your brain.

- Don, you have officially challenged my brain now.haha.

30th November 2008

2008-11-30T06:00:00.000-08:00

This week is SO NOT A GOOD WEEK FOR ME!
well, not the whole week.
it started off from thursday onwards,
when i went to eat with my Aikido friends after training.
the food was nice,
but,
when i got back home,
i started to feel kind of sick.
got some sleep after washing up.
but then woke up at 1am and started vomitting and having stomach aches.
slept back for a while,
but then at 3am it started again.
and again,
and again,
until 7.30am.

Went for school for CDS tutorials.
Japanese presentation went well, even with the current condition that i'm in.
then French test was okay too.
phew!
went prayers,
and went to the PSL BBQ at Costa Sands Resort @ Pasir Ris.
it was nice seeing my juniors again.
gosh,
they have grown.
i didn't really eat though.
just some cheese balls..
and went home after that..

and I JUST GOT TO REALISE THAT,
I OFFICIALLY HAVE DIARRHOEA!
ARGH!!
Man, it was hell man.

then today i had training at Kolam Ayer CC.
with the diarrhoea effect still there,
but not as bad as before.
thank you to those who partnered with me,
for not torturing me during practice.

went shopping with my family after that.
woots!
bought a jacket with a hood on!
finally!

now,
i just gotta deal with the bloody DIARRHOEA,
PLUS THE WORK IN SCHOOL!
aargh!

23rd November 2008

2008-11-23T04:23:00.000-08:00

i know i said that i'll just post in a weekly basis,
but this is MY Blog anyway!
=)

For today,
went for training at Kolam Ayer CC.
one thing that i can say about this training,
I have never felt so happy in my life after going for this particular training.
gosh,
it was 80% slamming to do.
and we practised more of the randori stuff.
YEAH!!!
but the best part was after training,
when CY, Kris and another brown belter grabbed me.
CY and the brown belt guy grabbed my wrists.
Kris was clinging on to me like a bear [HER TRADEMARK MOVE AS OF 23rd NOV]
-_-" You don't see that in randori everyday.
whoo hoo!
and i managed to fight them off for certain amount of time.
until CY pinned me down!
damn!
haha, but it was really cool.
the ability to fend off attackers without even thinking.
the feeling was so so so mesmorising.
ate with CY and Kris,
and headed for granny's house!
woots!

at my grandma's house,
i finally get to eat ROTI KIRAI!
YAHOO!!
if you don't know what that is,
go google up yourself the images of that food.
hahah.
i've been dreaming to eat it for quite some time.
after that,
watched the movie Taken.
one word for the movie : HARDCORE MAN!
the movie is not only action-packed,
but the storyline is really really cool.
one thing's for sure,
never mess with a man who once worked in the government sector.
=)

21st November 2008

2008-11-21T06:08:00.000-08:00

this week,
was the most emotional,
yet physical week ever.
it was one hell of a roller coaster ride.

As days gone by during this week,
I'm starting to dislike my two subjects :
SAS and CMSK3.
SAS is really a pain in the ass for me.

and just when i thought i could
As for aikido training,
thought I could like enjoy it.
but someone had to do that particular action,
and that's it man!
my other self starts to take over me,
COMPLETELY.
for those who went during training,
and partnered with me,
you know what i'm talking about.

The thing is that once I'm angry,
I start to concentrate more,
but then my injuries will be more,
because I force myself to the limit.
Even if the limit is reached,
I don't freaking care and just drive on.

Today,
only my CDS subjects cheered me up.
but during debates,
we lost,
even though it's a close win.
=(
me, din and jauhari were quite sad actually,
because we hoped that at least we won.
but still,
life still has to go on.

I guess this week's a really retarded week huh.

P.S : I forgive you rival, because it's really unhealthy to keep grudges. Please don't do that again.
Thank you.

16th November 2008

2008-11-16T03:07:00.000-08:00

this week is kinda hectic.
had to do a lot of projects in this week,
even though they are due in one week's or two weeks' time.
hahah.
but it's better to,
Suffer now, and enjoy later ;-)

anyway,
i think on Thursday was the most "exciting" session.
in the morning, i had to go to IDA Singapore at Suntec Tower 3.
honestly,
i got lost.
WHO THE HELL GETS LOST??
-_-"
to continue,
i had to go there for some focus discussion regarding the current efforts of promoting infocomm.
it was okay overall,
MAYBE because of the tokens they gave us.
hahah.

from there,
had to head back to school.
once reached,
attended OOPG lecture.
and mind you,
i WAS SICK!
dang it.
the illness really drained me out.
i started to remain secretive.

after that,
it was DEBATES!
OH MY GOSH,
i can't believe that i finished my speech earlier than the first goddamn bell.
-_-"
i think because i was freaking sick,
that i just wanted to get it over and done with.
but at least we won,
CLEAR WIN!
FINALLY!!
WOOTS!

last but not least,
it was Aikido training.
hahah.
i was hyped up,
but for a while,
the illness caught up to me again.
-_-"
i pushed myself all the way,
until the end of training.
that's when i really lay flat on the ground near the staircase.
to Grace, Weng Hon and Wen Qiang,
thank you for taking care of me..
really appreciate it.
especially my little imouto,
thanks for the impromptu Cooling-pad on my forehead =).
went back home.

on friday,
one thing.
I LOVE CCN DAY.
haha.
and i gave my dear flowers!
WOOTS!
SHE LOVED IT!!
YAYAY!!!

as for saturday,
nothing much.
just that had to attend a wedding somewhere near Raihan's (TP Aikido) house.
after that,
slept over at my granny's house at Simei.

for sunday,
it was training again.
this time, kris was around!
finally!
long time nvr train with her.
but she also sick -_-"
and also,
KHAI came down too!
YESSA!
trained more with him,
so that i know it really is like,
as in the real thing.

that's sums up for what happened this week.
before i end this post,

i would like to post some messages to some people :

1) Dear

Dear,I'm glad to have given you the flowers. Guess I was the first person in your life to give it huh. haha. I'm SOOOOO HAPPY that i did that.. well let those two roses symbolise our love and prosperity. and, to top it all off, happy belated 3 years and 11 months anniversary!! haha.. i know i wished it to you already.but it doesn't hurt wishing it to you again darlz..love you loads.

2) Rival

hey rival. glad to see that you're back in shape. but just don't exert yourself too much. i know you're the type to go gung-ho. go for all trainings and that. but then bear in mind on how much your body can take. the reason why i like don't go for more than 2 times a day is that i don't want to end up getting injured so badly until i can't do aikido no more. it's true that the temptation to train more is there, but is aikido everything? you gotta think about it. and also, if i get injured so damn badly, my girlfriend will so kill me because i have a 20% injury infliction only policy.hahah. so right, just take good care of yourself okay? I REPEAT, DO NOT OVER EXERT YOURSELF! if you broken bones, you lose to me already alright? control yourself. ;-)

3) CDS Debate Team 1 ( Me, Jauhari and Nuruddin) & CDS Team 2

Hey guys, you know something? you guys are the best bunch of people that i've ever worked with. even though we do have our strengths and weaknesses, we never fail to help each other. you guys were like my brothers, my true comrades. well, let's just keep fighting until this is over man! Clean, Smooth and Professional - That's who WE ARE. CDS.

9th November 2008

2008-11-09T05:18:00.000-08:00

Week 3
-------
This week,
i get to spend more time with my dear.
and happy 3 years and 11 months anniversary!
gosh didn't know it REALLY can last this long!
i really have to thank her,
for being patient with me,
and also not only a caring dearie,
but as a good and trustworthy friend to me.
i'm really glad to have her.

Also,
this thursday had an interview for the SAS case study.
didn't know whether it turned out right or wrong?
but overall,
i think we got our doubts clarified.

For aikido training on thursday,
the usual.
no comments about it.

On Friday,
Debate day.
was up against the FBI team.
but then,
even though the motion was kind of like siding with ours,
we lost.
But suprisingly,
Joe wasn't pissed as much as before.

To my debaters in CDS,

Whatever we do,
shows that what we can do, not define.
But what defines us,
what makes us unique,
is who we are truly.
We don't copy other people's styles just to win.
We create our own unique style,
our own image,
so that people know.

- Clean, Smooth and Professional

3rd November 2008

2008-11-02T22:43:00.000-08:00

lol.
sorry for the late update regarding last week.
guess i was worn out that week,
but with a sense of happiness =)

School was okay,
because now things are starting to pick up.
Projects, assignments, reports..
god, here we go again hamzah!
just got to know that on this coming thursday that i have to wear formal.
AND i'm SO NOT GONNA WEAR THE BLAZER AGAIN!
hahah.
had enough of it.
it's for an interview, part of our assignment.

as for aikido,
it's okay lah.
just that i finally PAID for MULTIPLE DOJO,
because i don't want that SOMEONE to BUG me! =)
but BUGGING me, in a good way though,
in a form of motivation.
:P
I seriously wanna torture her alot!!
mUAHAHAHAH!!
and i gotta train for the upcoming demo.
and my partner : my pain-in-the-*** friend.
=)
lol.
you should know who i'm referring to.

on friday,
had the campus relay.
sadly that i didn't run,
but it's okay.
because i may slow down the group.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
the IIT DREAM TEAM GOT 6th,
out of 53 teams!
WOOTS! l337 man.
Congrats to the team man!
was an honor to train with you guys man.

then on sunday,
Kolam Ayer training.
haha.
gosh it's been a while since i went there.
=)
the scenery and all.
i kinda miss training there,
with all the people that i made friends with,
both young and adults alike..

i guess that's about it.

as for this week,
i just gonna have to put up my RoyalGuard on.
hahah.
For those who don't know RoyalGuard,
PLAY DMC for god's sake!
=)

25th October 2008

2008-10-24T23:12:00.001-07:00

Week Zero
-----------
Finally,
back in school!
hahahah.
instead of rotting at home doing nothing,
i rather go to school doing something.

Was introduced to new subjects. This is what i thought of it :

DBIS (Database Information Systems) - something to do with how to manipulate and store data in Databases. I think it's gonna be interesting.

SAS (System Analysis) - more on analysing case scenarios, find out challenges and overcome them. lol. that's like PW back in secondary school.

OOPG (Object-Oriented Programming) - back to JAVA!! wee!

These are so far my 3 core diploma subjects.
as for the TP core,
APEL2 is gonna be okay.

For CMSK3,
AAHH!!!
looks like english formats can never be avoided.
it's like sitting for madam noreha's lesson again.
hahahah.

But the two most favourite subjects of all are :
FRENCH AND JAPANESE!!!
wee!!

Comment on French : nice. but got a lot of nasal sounds that i gotta practise. it's like Arabic.

For Japanese : YAHOO! FINALLY GONNA LEARN IT!! I've been yearning for that all my life.
And you know what?

Seriously,
i find my japanese tutor,
Shigeta-sensei,
kawaii des ne!!
hahha.

hmm,
as for aikido,
okay lah.
just that didn't have training today because it rained.
=(
didn't go to kolam ayer CC for the training.
furthermore, multiple dojo gotta pay liao.
i see how first.
and also,
my pain in the ass rival is back,
KRIS!!
hahahaha..
finally she's back,
for me to annoy and irritate.
YES AH!!

Here's something that i think my rival should read :

A young boy traveled across Japan to the school of a famous martial artist.
When he arrived at the dojo he was given an audience by the Sensei
"What do you wish from me?" the master asked.
"I wish to be your student and become the finest kareteka in the land," the boy replied.
"How long must I study?"
"Ten years at least," the master answered.
"Ten years is a long time," said the boy.
"What if I studied twice as hard as all your other students?"
"Twenty years," replied the master.
"Twenty years! What if I practice day and night with all my effort?"
"Thirty years," was the master's reply.
"How is it that each time I say I will work harder, you tell me that it will take longer?" the boy asked.

"The answer is clear. When one eye is fixed upon your destination, there is only one eye left with which to find the Way."

hehe ;)

12th October 2008

2008-10-12T07:40:00.000-07:00

1 more week till school starts.
lol.

other poly's have started school already.

well, for this week,
i suddenly have the mood to read it.
as usual,
aikido training was great.
trained at Kolam Ayer CC instead as the TP dojo was wet due to the rain.

the more suprising one was on friday.
haha.
Dear's family actually came down to my house to visit for hari raya!
WOW!
This is the first time one of my friend's family came down.
0.0
i'm pretty shocked actually.
but it turned out to be just fine.

and in return was today,
when it was my family's turn to visit her house.
hahahah..

guess it turned out to be a fine week after all.
and especially i get to see Dear most of the time this week!
heheh.

well,
that's all i have to say for today.
can't wait to see the new timetable for next semester.
=]

5th October 2008

2008-10-05T06:11:00.000-07:00

this week was an enjoyable week to be honest.
due to the fact that it was hari raya.

on thursday was aikido training.
haha.
weapons training!
WHOO HOO!
thank god i remembered the katas.
and also,
the more interesting part was,
TANTO!
Knife Disarment was damn cool sia.
i found out that you can actually use the knife being threatened by your attacker,
and use it to your advantage,
by just moving a bit.
hahah!
damn cool man!

today also had aikido training as well.
had more focus on the Jo and the Tanto.
it was really REALLY COOL!!

as for hari raya outings,
it's fine so far.
my stomach's getting more bloated each day.
but then,
the green packets just keep coming!
=]

as also,
welcome back dear!
thank god she returned home safely from Vietnam!

life goes on as usual i guess.

1st October 2008

2008-10-01T08:10:00.000-07:00

First thing's first,
Salam Eidulfitri to all Muslims around the world!
Minal Aidi Wal Faizin.

Started off by waking up in the wee hours of the morning,
to go to the mosque to do our prayers.
Then when at home,
did last minute clean-ups.
hahah.
after that,
asked for forgiveness from our elders.
not to mention,
the green packets too!

The houses i visited,
they were the usual.
grandparent's house, granduncle's and my uncles who live nearby.
it was kinda nice actually.
especially food!
MUHAHAHAA!!
FOOD!!!

but somehow,
i'm supposed to be happy right?
i wasn't.
there's just something missing right now..

haiz.

To all my friends,
forgive me for any wrongdoings i have done to you,
be it by actions or by word of mouth,
i'm really sorry as the consequences weren't intentional.

28th September 2008

2008-09-28T07:43:00.000-07:00

evening to all.

today,
had aikido training at Kolam Ayer CC.
the only juniors present were me, Grace, Riduwan and Man Ki.
=]
CY, LQ and Weina also came down as well..
heehee.
and i found out that the guy whom i practised with from SP,
Haikel.
man he's really a good uke and nage.
training was all the tough stuff,
locks,
slams,
and obstacles.
it almost looked like sensei was training us for randori.
T-T
knee got busted again.
haiz.
went back home,
helped out with the house chores,
used the com.
and when time flies,
it is break fast time before i knew it.
lol.

went terawih with the Arifs and DANIAL (FINALLY)
it was okay.
went back home about 10 plus.

Guess hari raya's approaching,
in just 2 days time.

but,
i'll be kind of sad,
as dear's flying off to Vietnam tomorrow morning.
guess i'll be alone for now.

Take care dear.

26th September 2008

2008-09-25T23:07:00.000-07:00

Hari RAyA ALeRT : 4 more days!
Yahoo!
Can't wait.

anyway, for this week,
it was okay.
had debate training again on Wednesday.
this time, seelan came down!
whoo hoo!
however,
TWO persons did not come down.
Not gonna say the names,
but they really made me pissed off.

So the CDS team was split into 2,
2 per team.
Seelan and Jeremy Chan in one team,
Jauhari and me was in the other.

Seelan's team had to face off with the IMI.
as for me and Jauhari,
we faced the FBI again!
hahaha.
lol.
it's just that,
we have this passion to fight the FBI if we can.
hahahaha

anyway,
both teams from CDS won their debates perspectively.
and for my side,
i owe it to Joe,
because he's the one who really helped me out.
without him, i'm nothing man..

as for thursday,
had aikido training.
the usual sort.
covered Yokumenuchi and the locks.
haha.
after the whole training,
ate at the coffee shop nearby with the guys.
it was actually an ALL GUYS OUTING.
we had a lot of fun,
especially the content of our conversations.
you know what i mean guys....
=]

today,
nothing much to do.
went to mosque to do my friday prayers.
then now i'm sitting in my room with the air-con switched on,
because the weather is as hot as hell.

:P

that's about it for today.

And countdown for dear's departure : 3 days =(

21st September 2008

2008-09-21T07:49:00.000-07:00

wow!
21st September already?
that's really quick.

NOTE : 9 more days to HARI RAYA!!

anyway,
about this week.
it isn't much of a bore actually.
first two days,
had nothing to do.
but on wednesday,
had to come down to school twice.
for what you guys may ask?

WELL,
I'M IN THE DEBATING TEAM!
shocking isn't it?
well,
it's not the whole of poly.
but there is a IIT inter-diploma debating competition in the IIT school.
and a few of my friends and i are representing my diploma.
had the first training on wednesday.
it was fun,
with jeremy and jauhari working with me.

also,
on the same day itself,
had to come back to school at night,
to attend the follow-up on the hacking workshop.
thought we're gonna learn something new today,
but it ends up to be like a short briefing on the HITB Live Hacking Competition,
in which us Year 1s have no experience over intense debugging and all.

on thursday,
had aikido training as usual.
learnt new stuff as always.
=]

as for today,
also had aikido training at Kolam Ayer.
trained at the street soccer court instead of the hall,
as it was used up for some free health checking event.
-_-"

it was nice actually.

suddenly,
i can't even think of anything more to write.
hahah..
mind went completely blank.

12th September 2008

2008-09-11T21:06:00.000-07:00

afternoon guys.

here to blog about this week now.
Monday wasn't anything much.

just that i watched the Dark Knight at home.

damn it's cool.

and also,

HAPPY 3 YEAR 9 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY DEARIE!!

As for Tuesday,

NCC Day Dinner!

whoo hoo!

the dinner was great.

Everybody dressed up damn nice sia.

for BOTH men and women.

hahah.

Zuib wore a baju kurung for the dinner.

that i like.

hahah

couldn't get any photos though.

For Wednesday,

came down to school for some debate training.

going to have a inter-course,

OOPS!

i mean, inter-diploma debate competition in IIT school.

hahaha.

can't wait to get it on.

At the same day,

results were out for the main exams.
AND...

OMG!

GPA 4!!!??

ALL DISTINCTIONS!!???

WAHH!!!!!

hahaha.

That was my reaction when i read my results.

And i think people are starting to swear at me when they see my results.

hahaha..

For thursday,

it was aikido training.

dang it!

couldn't repair Kris's router.

because SHE,

didn't know the admin username and password.

after training right,

something terrible happened.

KRIS'S ROUTER IS LOCKED IN THE AIKIDO ROOM!!
AAAHHH!!!

SORRY SIAU TIAN FOR TROUBLING YOU.

after that ate outside.

I wanna end this post with a quote from a friend of mine :

" I rather be loved for who and what I am now "

In my opinion,

I do agree with it.

but,

what if,

what you are causes people to stay away from you as time goes?

Also,

as my relationship goes,

experiencing the ups and downs of life is like a rollercoaster ride.

Hearts get torn apart,

souls get driften away.

But the funny thing is,

i still want to carry on the relationship.

Why you may ask?

it's because of what we have been through all these while.

The happiness,

the sorrow,

the joy,

the agony,

of all that we've been through.

Makes us stronger by the day,

not weaker.

I love you my dear,

and these words will be true to you for as long as we can last.

8th September 2008

2008-09-07T23:25:00.000-07:00

hey guys.

sorry i didn't blog last night.

anyway,
last week was considered the first week of ramadhan,
also known as first week of fasting!
hurray!
wasn't really that tiring to fast.
terawih was also fine,
with the arifs and danial.

Last thursday,
had aikido training as usual.
thank god i didn't faint during training.
whoo hoo!
everything went well.
break fast outside for the first time of my life with my friends.

Yesterday,
Aikido Family Day.
participated with combined training.
but then during training,
my left knee gave out.
was injured.
=(
damn it!!

now i just feel so crippled.
so helpless.
=[

29th August 2008

2008-08-29T07:53:00.000-07:00

it's me again, here to blog.

first thing's first.
FINALLY THE WORST IS OVER!
Holidays are here!
woo hoo!

but i think,
the worst days were during the exam periods.
goodness,
this is the first time that i stayed up late night for 5 nights consecutively
just to study hardcore.

the papers were okay,
except for CARC.
it made me get the shock of my life.
my mind was blank for the first 10 minutes.
i panicked.

was really sad that there wasn't aikido training on thursday,
due to some circumstances.
=[
was really looking forward to it.
haiz.

well, as for today,
went out for breakfast with my mum and dad.
saw the 4E2s there.
wow!
at 9am just to go to East Spring Sec for a visit for Teacher's Day?
hahah.

met dear at 11am outside school to visit together.
watched the teacher's day concert.
after that, met the teachers.
also met some of my old old buddies,
Qing Ling, Nabilah, Nadiah, Sok Peng, Fiza,
Syaf, Fuad, Mokthar,Zul, Arif and so on..

glad to see them anyway =]

after that headed for friday prayers.
went to Ghufran this time round.

then,
went back home,
and went out again,
with my family this time.
to do what?
to eat.
hahah.

Gosh, i'm really full until now.

=]

Hey,
for those who like sentimental songs,
listen to this song Byul by Kim Ah Joong.
it's in Korean, and it's quite nice actually.
makes me feel emo when i hear it.

22nd August 2008

2008-08-22T06:42:00.001-07:00

here to blog again about this week.
well for this week, it wasn't much of a bore.
started off this week by going to school to study in the morning,
about 9am.
with Jauhari, Nuruddin, Cleve and Jeremy.
hahah.
and also guest starring : DEAR!
hahah.
pity her had to study alone.
but then she went off halfway because
she suddenly fell sick.
could be due to the weather though.

then after that,
met Siau Tian and Kris.
installed for Kris her anti-virus software onto her laptop.
JUST A REMINDER THAT SHE SHOULD UPDATE IT!!
=)

anyway,
moving on.

Tuesday,
came down to East Spring Sec,
for some PSL matters.
heard that PSL was going to close.
damn it!
i'm not worried about the closing of PSL,
but i'm worried more about the people that are in there,
especially those sec 2s.
AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD,
WE PSLs have been serving the school's needs,
helping them out in events such as Speech Day,
Teacher's Day and others,
and this is the thanks we get?
i mean i don't care that my work isn't recognised in PSL,
but what about the others??
Is it because that we're making trouble?
I still don't see the point.
The reason why the sec 1s are integrated to our school,
in my opinion,
is because of the PSLs.
We're making it happen.

Next,
Wednesday.
went for NCC training.
damn it!
had no choice,
because no Cadet Officers were coming down due to exams.
(-_-)"
Trained the Part As and Bs.

Thursday,
AIKIDO BEBEH!
hahah.
this is why i love Thursdays now.
hahahah.
started off by doing the basics.
Iriminage,Shihonage and so on.
Then did Sankyo from a strangling position.
haha.
Guessed who I practised it with?
HAHAH!
'MASTER' of Locks, Siau Tian.
hahah.
he 'tortured' me with elbow hits to my stomach,
and the various locks and slams.

And not forgetting partner in crime Kris,
for doing the Ikkyo lock,
WITHOUT MERCY.
HAHA!
only for that particular moment.

I'm in for one hell of a year in Aikido.
hahah.

Friday,
CMATHS1 Exam!
haha.
it was fine.
and this is the first time that i'm really confident that i did it correctly.

ALSO,
I REJECTED THE JPSDS OFFER!
WHOO HOO!
AND I HAVE NO REGRETS!
:P

15th August 2008

2008-08-15T08:30:00.000-07:00

Week 17.

It was rather hectic for the first 3 days of the week,
burning midnight oil just to complete the remains of the PRSP Assignment 2.
Everybody kept bugging me,
but no matter how annoyed I was,
I just helped them.
I just feel that I'm being used,
but what the heck,
at least I'm helping my friends anyway.

When it was Interview day for PRSP,
thank god it didn't went badly as I expected.
Only a few hiccups or two.
Dang!
But overall, i think i did okay for the assignment 2.
However, there's a slight effect to this :
- Lack of sleep

Thursday,
CARC Lab Test.
WHOO HOO!
I finally understand what the hell the lab test was about.
The concepts and all,
I finally got it!
Haha.
Finished early so that I could go home and get a rest.
*Slept for 1 hour*
Wasn't really enough to regenerate myself.
Had lessons,
and finally it was Aikido training.
oh yeah,
i was really not myself during training.
Well, SOMEONE overdid it,
causing my left shoulder to hurt.
But what the heck.
It's a consequence of joining a martial art right.
In addition,
the slams that Siau Tian did to me,
even though it was fun,
it DID damaged my left arm.
Haha!
Well I asked for it.

Met dear after my Aikido training.
Even she was quite worried about me,
regarding my current condition.
She even wanted to wait for the bus that I had to board up before she went home.
But,
I just feel damn bad lah.
I mean, as a guy,
you shouldn't let the girl wait for you.
So I just sent her home first and said goodbye.
<3 her loads.

Today,
seminar conducted by some big shots.
Matt Hardman (Microsoft big shot) and Anthony Lim (IBM director, i think).
HAHA!
This is the first time,
that i found a seminar engaging.
especially Mr Lim's presentation,
regarding Application Security.
hahah.
And i learnt that,
SOCIAL ENGINEERING CAN REALLY MAKE ONE HELL OF A DIFFERENCE TO A NATION.
seriously.

8th August 2008

2008-08-08T08:20:00.000-07:00

before i start posting,
just wanna say,
Happy National Day to Singapore in advance!
WHOO HOO!
43 years of INDEPENDENCE!

this week's kind of really straining me out.

for the last few weeks,
i had to sleep late like almost all the time,
stressing my brains out to finish up the assignments,
projects, and study for upcoming tests.
and on top of that i have CCAs to commit too.

this has been going on for exactly 3 weeks,
and my mind and body is so damn weak,
that i could just faint right on the spot at school.
thank God that i didn't.

i think even dear realised that i'm really tired,
judging by the way i look every time i meet her to go to school together.
but i just don't show it to anyone else.
because i didn't want so many people to see how weak i am..

And i'm afraid,
that by each passing day,
I may not have the strength to carry on protecting,
my family,
my loved ones,
my friends,
and my special one..

And that is the thing that i fear most.

~ Behind every smile on the face lies a weakness within one's self ~

1st August 2008

2008-08-01T07:54:00.000-07:00

hey guys.
i know it's a bit early to blog about this week,
but i just feel like it.
For those who had seen my nickname in MSN,
yes,
this week was considered Hell Week,
especially for the CDS Freshmen,
due to the following :

1) BITS Presentation
2) BITS Lab Test
3) DCNK Lab Test
4) CCNA1 Examination

it was a terrible week seriously.
with the workload and all.
but thank god i managed to pull through everything.
Especially CCNA1.
I was the only one to make it in my class.
Everybody failed. =(
Hope there's a re-test for them coming up soon,
because if they do have it,
i will be there to help them.
whether i do or do not like that person or not,
i will do it.

Aikido

You may be wondering,
why the hell are we posing?
well yesterday,
we had our belt presentation ceremony,
for those who went grading last Saturday.

Even though it was painful when kneeling for a long time,
but at least it's worth it.

You know,
when i received the belt from Sensei,
it just felt so honourable.
We went through so hard to get it.
So to my fellow Aikidokas who graduated with me with blue belts,
I'm honoured to be training along side you guys.
You guys are like family to me.
And pardon me for being an annoying dumbass sometimes,
because I just want to keep this family lively and going.
To foster a strong bond,
To look out for each other when we're in need.
And most importantly,
To care and cherish one another.

And for the fellow Aikidokas who haven't get blue belt yet,
don't be disheartened,
because soon you shall go for your grading soon.
So work hard and you'll earn it.

But,
let not the colour of our belts draw the line between us Aikidokas.
We should embrace each other and help one another,
so that we can prosper together.
=)

That's all I can say to my fellow TP Aikido peeps.

My Sweetheart

Dear,
it's been a while hasn't it since I blogged about you.
So i would like to dedicate this portion of the post just for you.

Well for these past few years,
I guess we've been through a lot together.
and I REALLY MEAN, A LOT.
all those bad times from Sec 1 to Sec 4,
And I admit,
most of the problems are created by me.
But no matter how much pain I caused to you,
you never seem to give up on me,
even though it tempts you to.
That's when I start to appreciate you,
because now I realise that,
you really do love me,
and you really mean it.
And so,
I would like to take this opportunity to say to her "I Love You",
because I really do love her now.
and I mean it.
Now I do treasure her a lot,
and as much as my family.

That's about it for today.
=)

26th July 2008

2008-07-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

for this week,
it wasn't much of a bore really.
it was more of the upside than downside.

first up it was the CARC presentaiton on Thursday.
it turned out to be pretty good.
a job well done to my teammates Cleve, Yuan Xiang, Jauhari and Seelan.
I really salute to these guys for working together as a team.

after that it was my Aikido training.
it was okay actually,
came in late because ended my class about 6pm.
trained with Wen Hon and the rest of the guys.
but then it rained.. =(
had to stop training then..

the most interesting day was actually today,
GRADING!!
WHOO HOO!
damn it was bloody tiring.
too bad i didn't partner Kris for grading,like i promised.
but i guess it was a blessing perhaps?? ;)
hahah.

my uke was this lady from SP.
she was okay lah i could say.
but the more tiring part was the free exercise,
when the seniors had to do techniques on us,
and we had to roll,
roll,
roll,
and roll again.
damn freaking tiring.
but after all i've been through,
thank god it was over.

after grading,
attended the training session.
it was a nice atmosphere actually.
learning more new techniques,
but all based on fundamentals.
like yokumenuchi shihonage.
and Nikkyo (which Kelvin likes to do on me the most, RIGHT??)
hahah...

but i think,
as a whole,
everybody who attended grading did well.

19th July 2008

2008-07-19T03:25:00.000-07:00

this week was kinda stressful but yet interesting.

first few days,
monday to wednesday,
wasn't anything much.
everybody in class got stressed up due to DCNK project.
but my day was better when i went back home with dear..
she just makes me feel better whenever she's around.
after all the stressful work at school,
her presence will make me forget everything for a while,
just to be happy always..
;-)

as for thursday,
PRESENTATION DAY!
lol.
i think my presentation was okay.
but the question that mr chin asked,
damn!
i tried so hard for me to defend it.
but i think it failed.. =(
haiz.
but at least i did my best.

after that was Aikido training.
that made me felt a bit better.
learnt a new technique that day,
the 2nd lock technique, Nikkyo.
OH HELL IT WAS BLOODY PAINFUL!
damn it Kelvin!
hahah.
but at least i got my revenge back..
but Kelvin,
i don't hate you lah...
relax bro.
after training, went to eat with the seniors.
hahah.
it was okay lah.

Friday,
had the social etiquette workshop.
i must say,
i think the workshop is kinda good actually..
learning what you wear reflects what you want people to think of you,
first impressions to be precise.

after that,
i had to rush off to East Spring Sec.
i'm sorry dear if i made you worried,
because i don't want to be late.
but i really thank you for comforting me..
=)
muacks to her loads!

so went for IMT @ Nee Soon Camp.
got the horror of my life that only me and Akmal are the only Cadet Officers.
what the hell sia.
but thank god that there were only 3 schools that were there,
out 6 expected schools.
the other 3,
the COs forgot about it :P
what the hell sia!
hahah
ate at Northpoint with Akmal and headed straight home.

Today wasn't anything much,
tuition-ed my cousin.
taught her Trigo graphs,
and somehow she says that it's fun.
hahaha..
good for her then..

i guess that's it for today.
gonna continue with my projects...

13th July 2008

2008-07-13T04:33:00.001-07:00

hey hey hey!

haha.

sorry for the high-ness lately.

well this week wasn't much of a bore,
school was great!
but then,
project submissions are en route.
gosh,
stress levels are getting high now,
but can handle la ehh.

as for life,
it's okay so far.
=)
as happy as a lark.

for today,
i went for aikido.
as usual.
BUT DAMN,
I WAS BLOODY LATE
hah.
woke up at 8.15am.

changed up to my jeans and my shirt,
ate apple pie for breakfast and rushed off.
when i reached there,
luckily they only started the warm up
changed into my Gi and joined in the training.

first Uke of the day, Man Ki.
WAH DAMN SIA!
he is really good in his Iriminage.
but as Uke (attacker)
he still have to work on his receiving.
he's good to be honest.

Next one is my rival,
KRIS!
-_-"
Technique to be practised : Shihonage!
OMG!
arm lock.
well she is good i tell you,
because she can really lock me,
until now my elbow still hurts due to the locking.
damn you!!!
=P
but then,
she's also a great Uke too!

next Uke for practising Tenchinage,
GRACE!
the unmovable one!
hahah
lol
it's really hard to make her move forward.
but overall it was nice.

then later part of the day,
dear came down to meet my dad,
because of some configurations that she wanted my dad to do.
=)
gosh,
looking at her reminds me of the dream that i told her last night!
so sweet of her..

<33333 her loads!!

6th July 2008

2008-07-06T01:50:00.001-07:00

nothing much happened today.

morning went to Kolam Ayer CC for aikido training.
somehow,
there were MORE people.
hahah.

started off with the basic techniques :
Iriminage (Shomenuchi and Aihanmi)
Shihonage (Aihanmi and Gyaku Hanmi)
Ikkyo (Shomenuchi And Aihanmi)
Tenchinage

yeah.
that was all the unarmed techniques for grading,
so had to practise it real hard.
trained with various parts.
first up i trained with LQ.
was okay lah.
then, trained with WH next.
haha.
the slacker broz.
hahah.
we do our techniques in a relaxed manner.
then comes Grace.
OH GOD!
i'm so not gonna let her do Shihonage on me.
hahah.
she really did a lock on me,
which was correct lah.
but then she pulled down,with my elbow on her shoulder.
DAMN!
hahah.

after that for Tenchinage,
had WH again as my partner.
LOL.
then one of my buddies had a problem doing Tenchinage with Grace.
HAHA!
she doesn't move.
LOL!
by right the receiver must take one step in front.
lol.

yeah,
after that was weapon training.
OH GAWD!
i had to lead the white belts in the 31 Kata.
because i'm the only one who remembers it all. -_-"

yeah,
finally it was Kokyuho.
HAHA!
my partner this time : KRIS!
LOL..
and OMG,she's stronger than me.
hahah.
can't even do the Kokyuho correctly sia when i did it.
then i did what Christopher taught me.
haha.
and I DID IT!!
yahoo!!

after that.
the gang went to eat at the hawker centre.
haha.
$1.30 for Tosei Egg?
Riduwan and I were both suprised.
hahah.
but what to do,
economy is on the rise.
we can't do anything about it.

took bus no. 23 to SAFRA,
and changed to bus no. 5.
Kris was there too,
and we talked,
regarding what would all of us do once we graded.
to continue Multiple dojo,
we have to pay another $50, on top of the other compulsory $50 for training at TP.
yeah.

And now,
looks like i got a rival in Aikido already.
Kris,
you're so not gonna beat me in Jo. :P

hahah.

4th July 2008

2008-07-03T20:30:00.000-07:00

hey guys..

for this week,
wasn't much though.
just that 2 of my projects are completed.
PRSP and DCNK.
YAHOO!!
finally!
hahah..
lectures were okay.
tutorials were also okay.

then,
yesterday,
had aikido training.
weapon training to be more precise.
haha.
did the usual.
13 kata followed by some techniques.
then after training i had to stay back,
to be briefed regarding my grading to blue belt.
YAHOO!!
but then,
$60??
GOD!!
hahah.
but luckily i'm not a gal,
because they need to buy a $85 hakama,
in addition to the $60 grading fee.
hahahah..
phew!

anyway,
as for life,
it's getting better i guess.
the conflict between my girl and I is finally over.
we're back together again.
=)

i would like to thank those who tried to comfort me via my tag.
but most importantly,
i would like to thank my dear,
for accepting me back again.
i'm really in your debt.
and i love you.

<3

27th June 2008

2008-06-27T02:36:00.000-07:00

hey guys.
not gonna talk much today.
just found an interesting article online.

From: Love Coach, Kloudiia TayDate:

June 27, 2008
Dear Seeker Of Love,

I'm certain that you would like to have a great love life and enjoy every moment of it. If you see older couples who have been together with each other most of their lives, you might wonder what makes their relationship so special that allows them to hang on to each other.

Beyond the hype about being able to do 'speed dating' and 'compatibility testing' or 'seduction', it's about time to get down to the real nuts and bolts of Relationship Mastery. First of all, allow me to explain how I turned myself into a Love Specialist.

I'd been fascinated by relationships all my life, and largely because I was truly a failure at my own relationships in general. I didn't really like mixing around, and later on suffered the consequences. While all my friends were dating, I'd been in a hole, hoping that someone would come along. When that person did come, the relationship wasn't really all that I had in mind.
I was living in a fantasy world, where a prince charming comes to marry the princess. I'm sure many women might long for that. And the men? Well, you'd be raring to go if you could sweep a beautiful girl off her feet, wouldn't you? It was a typical romantic notion that everyone has been trained to do. The trouble is this: TV shows never show you the reality behind love and relationships. And boy was I surprised when I first found out... love wasn't all that it was cut out to be!

After my first failed relationship, I wanted to believe in love again. It was so tough. And I believe you understand the way I feel. I didn't know what went wrong, and I could hardly even think straight. I was much more intimidated by the fact that I was no longer getting younger. Many of my friends started getting married. Then reality hit me one day when someone very close to me got a divorce even though they had been happily married just a couple of years ago.
I sat down and listened to the horror stories of relationships gone bad, and it shook my romantic beliefs to the core. I not only became more skeptical, I was more adamant that there would be no one out there for me. I even heard stories from many male friends as well that they were jaded by relationships. They had started to believe that women were unreasonable, that they were too possessive... you know, the common things in a relationship. I couldn't help but compare those who had poor relationships versus those who were getting into fantastic and fulfilling relationships.

Hey... I know it sounds like I turned into a skeptic. But the truth is almost everyone can predict the cycle of relationships. I saw it with my own eyes, observing my friends and my clients.

The Relationship Cycle

Stage 1: "Romancing" Stage
Nobody complains at this stage. The initial attraction is great, the feeling is wonderful, and it feels just like how it's supposed to be like on TV!

Stage 2: The Realisation Stage

This is the point where you get a little shocked by certain tendencies. You find them offensive, but you don't do anything... yet.

Stage 3: The Tolerance Stage
This is the point where you start to tolerate each other, and do what is required to fit in. But the trouble starts in the next stage.

Stage 4: The Cracking Stage
You begin to tell the other person why they must change. You think you can make the other person better, and you might even feel that the other person has not been listening and paying attention to you. The fact is... nobody can change simply because of what you say. Even psychotherapists take hours upon hours in order to bring about some change in their patients. What makes you think you're trained to do the same?

Stage 5: The Grass Is Greener On The Other Side Stage
You begin to find that it's easier to start off with Stage 1. You go back to your initial ways, looking at other people. You pay close attention to others, and pay closer attention to your dreams. Ahem. Wake Up.

Stage 6: The Break Up And Reunification... and break up
Funny how this always happens. People want to break, enjoy their freedom, then get back together again. This could go on forever, but it's like taking several rides in the same faulty Ferris wheel of love. Boring. Predictable. Painful.
Stage 7: Skepticism

Ah, finally, you break, thinking the whole world is to blame or that there's something wrong with you, and then you start to build up your defenses. There's nobody right for you, and there's nothing you can do about it. You lick your wounds, then decide you'll never fall for a jerk/jerkette again.
Sound familiar? Well it did to me, then it hit me like a ton of bricks...

Did you make these mistakes in your relationship?

Communicating: Do you know why learning most forms of communication doesn't make a difference between the two sexes?

Mind Reading: Are you aware that as a man, when she wants you to read her mind, there's a much bigger implication than just being psychic?

Touching your partner: Did you know that touching is just one of the ways that only 10% of the population responds to?

Nagging: Are you aware that nagging doesn't really produce the kind of effect you thought it would?

Presenting A Gift: Would you be surprised if you knew that only certain gifts are perceived as valuable to a person? Buying socks for your man isn't a sign of love, and getting her chocolates could get you a tongue lashing.

Shopping: Why do men shop faster than women? Do you roll your eyes when he's at the electronics store? When she's looking at clothes?

The Cold War: Do you stop talking to your partner? In a special music experiment people did, the assumptions made by people were totally wrong when there was no communication.

Emotional Expression: Are you expressing emotions without effect? That the more you speak, the less he listens? When your temper blows, are you aware of the effect it has on her?
Many more mistakes you have to uncover in order for your relationship blueprint to get reconfigured.

that's about it.
if you wanna read the whole thing,
http://www.luvlifecoach.com/seminars/long.htm

haiz.
the damage given to a girl is much more than a guy's.
then if the girl is hurt by the guy,
the guy gets it.
but if the guy gets hurt by the girl,
does the guy even dare to say that he's hurt?
after all he went through just to break the girl's heart...

that's what i'm facing now...

and i wonder,
am i doing it right this time?

but if it turns from bad to worse,
i'm prepared to face the consequences..

20th June 2008

2008-06-20T06:04:00.000-07:00

hey there guys.
just came back from Aikido Camp.
gonna blog about it tonight.

Day 1

Went out from home at about 11am,
to meet my girl first.
hahah.
bid her goodbye and take care before i went off.
After that,
reached school.
Reported to SAR.
check my groupmates.
apart from Raihan and Shannon,
i didn't know who the hell are the rest sia.
hahah.
but through the Icebreaking games,
that was fun.
introduced them the Cowboy game + the clapping game,
which i had learnt during spec course.
hah.
Man Ki, Kris, Raihan, W.H, (i forgot that guy's name again), Chao Nan and Shannon.
these were the guys that i was put with.
hahah,
seriously they're a nice bunch of people.
So we had some interaction games,all the way till 3 plus.
went to pray for a while, changed into our Gi,
and training started at 4pm!
GOSH!
4pm??
hahah.
yeah.
all the way till 7 plus.
whoo hoo.
that's when i got slammed by Kris.
MIND YOU GUYS,KRIS IS A GIRL!
GAWD.
Firstly i was like asking,"Who want to slam me?"
Kris came to me and say "ME!! LET'S GO!"
haha.
but when she slammed me,
the sensation of your legs in the air was truly remarkable.
but it was only enjoyable for 3 seconds,
until it was called back to earth.
WHAM!
god!
there goes my nuts!
HAHAH!
well she is one funny uke and nage and the same time lah.
during training was also fun,
with Grace as my Uke and Nage.
even though a bit like anti-social,
but i try to talk to her lah, with Chao Nan helping me.
so that we could like try to make her feel welcome.
because i really like it when everyone is one big family,
and we look out for each other.
and then,
at night we watched the movie called "Remembering the Titans"
gawd!
it was nice.
HAHA!
right guys? ;)
and i'm not talking about that particular scene ah.
i'm refering to the whole storyline.
dozed off at 3am.

2nd Day
woke up at 6.30am by Raihan.
wah!
SHE SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME SIA!
haha.
i mean,a girl wearing tudung,
standing right in front of me.
REALLY FREAKY!!
woked Ridzuan and Azhari up to do our prayers.
after that,
we had PT.
gosh!
quite nice lah.
not that tiring.
hahah.
then had games!
gawd,
there was one particular game that was damn disgusting.
we were covered with Baked Beans, Chin Chow, Soap and water.
EEEE!!!
disgusting sia.
ahhh.
hahah
but it was funny anyway..
then the day ended with a water bomb based Counter-Strike.

yeah,
that was Aikido Camp alright!
and i certainly enjoyed it.
and i don't think i'm going for Kolam Ayer CC training on Sunday.
still body aching sia.
hahah.

=)

13th June 2008

2008-06-13T08:13:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.
sorry that i didn't post lately.

well i was away for four days!
ahaha
to where you may ask?
SPECIALIST COURSE PHASE 3 man!
whoo hoo!
it was held at SISPEC!
God i missed that place.
it's been 2 years since i last stepped there.
the last time was during Camp Pinnacle and my Spec Course.
I missed the toilets,
seriously! hahah
and the cookhouse.
heheh

well i was in-charge of Alpha 3 with Asyraf,Haiqal (55th Newbie..hehe) and Bikrem (West)
haha.
seriously,
we're one heck of a cool set of PCs.
haha.
anyway,got to know some of the cadets,
like Firdaus, Rui Fong, Liyana, Farhana, Dina, Zhi Kai, Yong Xiang,
bla bla bla.
hahah.
don't expect me to write all 47 of them.

first day was okay,
with the Opening Address and all.
there wasn't much of interaction between us Cadet Officers and the cadets.

second day,
all the trainfire and IFC assessments started.
marked my section 2.
didn't interact with them much,
and i tried to clear their doubts to the best of my abilities.

third day,
mutual assessments.
god!
i was barely trying to stay awake marking them.
hahah
dozed off in the bus while on our way to HQ for a while to send in the weapons.
the fun part was during night time,
when we had the cohesion night!
haha
this is the first time i had a cohesion night during SPEC COURSE!
ALPHA COY REALLY ROX TO THE CORE MAN!!!
hahah..

last day,
that's when all hell break loose for me,
for a while.
during the time that all the platoons were making their way to SISPEC Auditorium,
bloody hell sia.
platoons stopping on the road while people are marching at the back..
really got pissed off.
and the cadets added fuel to the fire when they made a lot of noise outside the Auditorium.
i exploded for a while..
cooled down after that.
but now my voice currently gone...
hahah..
then in the afternoon the cadets were getting their rank.
i was a bit sad,
that none of them got 2nd Sergeant.
haiz..
but like what Asyraf said to them,
"Like us CLTs,we treat each other equally.And that applies to you guys."
it's true anyway..

at the end of the day the cadets gathered in school level.
some were happy,
and some were crying (god knows why).
when i look at them,
i thought of my graduation during 54th Cadet Officers Course.
especially the time when my parents don me the rank.
gosh!
was so honoured..

anyway,
to all my Alpha 3 peeps,
well done!
Keep it up!
to the people i worked with,
it was fun working with you guys..
i'm honoured to call you my comrades.
to my childhood friend Alina,
I"m proud of you that you graduated as 3rd Sergeant during Spec Course.

MOST IMPORTANTLY,
TO MY DEAR GF,
I REALLY MISS YOU!!
LOVE YOU LOADS!!

6th June 2008

2008-06-06T07:24:00.001-07:00

whoa!
this has been a long while since i posted.
sorry guys.

been busy with exams lately.
this whole week was considered exam week.
it was okay lah.
i mean,
6 PAPERS are considered okay to me.
hahah..

this week,
i also had my aikido training.
it was also okay because it was weapon training.
but i was a bit clumsy during the 31 kata Jo practice.
I ACCIDENTALLY HIT SENSEI'S HEAD!!
OH MY GOSH!
GOMENASAI SENSEI!
i didn't mean to do it.
haiz..
but it was okay after that..

yeah,
so holidays are here for me.
and these are the events i have to attend :
1) Specialist Course Phase 3 (9th June to 12th June)
2) TP Aikido Camp (19th June to 20th June)

in addition i have projects to settle,
so yeah..

haha.
hope the holidays will be fine for me..

25th May 2008

2008-05-25T05:18:00.000-07:00

hey guys..

well for this week,
nothing much..
just had my CMATHS1 TEST this week.
it was also okay..

well as for aikido training,
it was okay!
haha.
met Kak Dee..
haha,
she still needs to work on her rolls..
=)
but then it rained about 7pm,
making our training cut short.
wanted to go for the training at Kolam Ayer CC,
but dad didn't allow..
haiz
it's okay..

yeah,
on friday,
i had to go back to school again,
after your friday prayers.
for make up lessons.
heh.

ONE THING'S FOR SURE,
I LOVE MY DEAR SO DAMN MUCH!
MUACKS!!!

18th May 2008

2008-05-17T21:13:00.000-07:00

Week 4..
lol.

apart from the CMATHS2 test this week,
there was also the CCN Day which was held on Friday.
my stall was considered a game stall,
called "Come & Squirt"
basically, you just have to shoot down the CORRECT targets
as many as possible.
and it's a form of a competition.
so players will have to compete to get to the top 3.
because:
1st place - Creative Zen Stone 2GB
2nd place - Zinc bag
3rd Place - $28 GV Gift Voucher.

yeah..
but then,
due to our location and lack of promotion.
my stall was kind of secluded.
so yeah.
we didn't earn much,
but what the hell.
beats the hell out of nothing.

but i was kind of pissed off,
when half of them disappeared.
and the other half (including myself) worked from the start to the finish.
for those people who worked with me for long hours,
i am proud to call you my true classmates..
because you guys worked hard,
you guys truly earn my respect.
FOr those who didn't,
you guys can just SORT OFF!

as for yesterday,
it was Accion Orientation,
YAHOO!!
it was kind of great..
but kept falling and all.
met and made new friends..
and also saw old friends as well..
it cheered me up a bit.
but yeah.

that's it for today.

10th May 2008

2008-05-10T08:51:00.000-07:00

hey y'all.
how's it hanging?

going to jumpstart on thursday.
WHOO HOO!!
HAPPY 3 YEARS AND 5 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY DEAR!
love her loads!
and we're still going..

hehe.
well on thursday,
was my FIRST AIKIDO LESSON!
WOOT!
man it was fun,
with all the rolls and falls.
hahah.
but above all,
i liked the breathing exercise.
haha,
just imagine,
being able to lock your opponent during the exercise.
haha.

as for friday,
met up with Cleve and Alan to buy the stuff for the CCN Day.
but had to go for friday prayers after that.
AND THEN,
i continued my shopping at Giant Supermarket at Pasir Ris.
hahah..
a lot of stuff man..

today,
hmm.
wasn't that interesting.
just went to eastpoint,
ate at banquet,
bought 2 games at popular.
hahah.
now currently at my grandma's house,
sleeping here..

well that's it for today.
do look out for posts..=)
see ya!

3rd May 2008

2008-05-03T06:33:00.000-07:00

Okay..
This week's summary coming right up!

For the first few days,
nothing happened much in school.
just the same old lectures,
tutorials and labs.
haha.
speaking of labs,
that reminds me of DCNK.
haha.
the DCNK Lab was conducted by Mr Ho.
haha.
he is sure one hell of a lecturer alright..
i think the guys in C200 know what I mean.
learning new stuff like RJ45 connectors, UTP cables,
TBase10 Hubs and so on.
as for BITS Labs,
that is one cool lab session.
because we learnt how to 'listen' to other people via MS-DOS..
hahah.
damn nice lah.
all keep spamming through.
then using Knoppix for Linux usage,
it's cool.

well apart from that,
on thursday afternoon was the Aikido registration.
LOL!
$162??
haha.
what the hell..
anyway,at least i found out that another classmate of mine,
Ming Hao, is also joining Aikido.
WHOO HOO!
at least got someone i know sia.
got my Gi and the Zhenqi-shu T-shirt on that day itself.
lol.

Then,
on Friday was my medical checkup at CMPB.
did everything from Blood Test to Heart Rate Test.
lol.
just waiting for results now.
and now i just got to know that i have 2 vocations left,
either Guards or Automotive Engineering.
I HOPE I GET INTO AUTOMOTIVE..
Pray to God that i get it..

25th April 2008

2008-04-25T04:32:00.000-07:00

Week One
Official school week.

hmm,
subjects were okay.
Computing Maths was basically just A Maths.
but a lil' bit more advanced..
hahah..
DCNK & BITS are going to be my favourite subject now.
HAHA!
Seriously,
Mr Chin is one hell of a good lecturer.
Somehow I pay good attention to his lectures.
as for CARC,
okay lah, can manage.
APEL and CMSK,
are also okay.
the only thing i just can't stand is PRSP.
i'm refering only to the lecture.
seriously speaking,
the lecturer is just blindly reading the slides shown on the powerpoint..
and we can barely hear him..
only PRSP Lab session was fun.
yeah, played ALICE! =)
if you guys wanna know what's ALICE,
ask the IIT school peeps who are taking the PRSP as a subject.

CCA Orientation Day was also carried out from Wednesday to Friday.
haha.
wanted to join TPSU,
but then i got too many commitments,
in NCC and PSL..
joining TPSU is like the Poly version of my PSL in the first place.
so what for should i join?
so i took up,
AIKIDO!
yesh, i took it up.
so if you guys think it's gay,
fine by me.
it's my choice.

anyway,
today wasn't much.
went back to school (even though there wasn't school anyway)
for what you may ask?
CMSK Project man..
hahah.
with Jon, Joe,Selan & YX.
we had a good laugh doing the project.
but it was fun.
and these guys can really do work..
i'm honoured to lead them in fact.

but throughout the week,
i was kind of unhappy.
started from last thursday.
planned to meet up with dear to go to Bedok Reservoir to have our quality time together.
initially,
when i phoned her up,
she say that she's currently eating.
so i said i'll wait for her in the library.
so i sat there in the library,
for 1 1/2 hour,
studying and doing my CMATHS 2 tutorials..
and then she called..
she said that she was going somewhere else to look for stuff,
for the CCN Day.
it was a setback actually.
i was kinda disappointed.. =(
so yeah,
from that moment on,
i started to feel moody..
haiz.
but what to do,
things don't go according to plan.
just had it's ups and downs.

well,
gotta go now.
tomorrow's another big day at HQ NCC.
haha.
just a small meeting with the new 55th cadet officers.

19th April 2008

2008-04-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

hey guys.
sorry i didn't update much.

well i think i'm gonna update this blog on a weekly basis -_-"

first thing's first,
i went for IIT Orientation from 16th to 18th April.
it includes an overnight stay on the 16th.
got to know my coursemates and classmates as well.
haha,
and fyi,
i only have 2 girls in my course,
out of SIXTY Guys!
and my class has none!
lol
but what the hell..
manpower rocks.

it wasn't as much impactful as FOC,
but it was worthwhile attending..
like the nightwalk for instance..
hahah
i would say that it was kind of scary.
so i blasted my mp3 so that i can hear nothing at all..

and guess what?
CDS won the cheering competition man!
WHOO HOO!!
YEAH!
HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY!

on friday,
attended Orientation until 12 plus.
because i had to go off for prayers.
but,
i won't be coming back.
because i had to attend Speech Day back at East Spring Sec.
Speech Day was fine,
and i met all my old buddies from sec 4E1
hahah.
kind of miss them loads.
and dear did dressed up on that day.
oh my gosh! she looks so damn beautiful.

anyway,
my parents also came down to see me receive my award,
the Raymond Teo Award.
it's an award that is only received by a student who has
done exceptionally well in both cca and studies.
and,
i saw my name being engraved on the school hall,
for the recipients of the Raymond Teo Award.
i was honoured to receive it.
but,
i couldn't have done it without the support of my family,
friends and loved ones..
no words can express my gratitude towards them.
THANKS GUYS!

as for today,
i had my haircut.
OH DEAR'S SO GONNA GET MAD!
haha
BUT,
it's not as short as it used to be.
don't believe it?
see for yourself.
after that went for my cousin's birthday.
AND HAHA!
MET AFIQAH, ISA'S COUSIN.
hahah.
it's been a while since i talked to her..
hahah..
I mean,
a REALLY REALLY LONG TIME!

well that's about it.
heh.
monday's starting school.
and i have one heck of a week to start off.
pfft.

13th April 2008

2008-04-12T20:04:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
just came back from camp recently.

Well,
what i can say about that camp is that,
IT DAMN ROCKS!
TP Freshman Orientation Camp 2008 rocks to the core!

AND,
I HAPPENED TO BE IN THE SAME GROUP AS MY DEAR! =)
hahahah..
confirm she's happy,
because i am too! hahahaha!
and i'm really glad to see that,
she has also made some new friends during the camp..
proud of her loads.

anyway,
met some of the most ecstatic people,
like Syah, Iylia, Harris, JOEY! (HAHA!MAKAN CURRY!), Daphne, Audrey (DANCING QUEEN SIA!) and of course, MANGO!
the GLs of Accion Empire was great,
like Maybeline, Irfan, Wati, Wan, Steven, bla bla bla..
hahah.
because there are about more than 20 GLs attached to one Empire.
whoa!
talk about huge manpower.

and,
OUR TEAM WON THE BEST SPIRITED TEAM!
YEAH!!
even though we didn't win first place,
but i think,
friendship is more important than winning..
=)
and guys,
thanks for giving me support to win the Best Freshie for Accion
really man,
i appreciate it....

well i got to go now..
blog some other day then..

9th April 2008

2008-04-08T14:42:00.000-07:00

hey guys.
it's 5.45am in the morning now and going to blog for a short while..

well,
today's the day.
NAPFA day..
this day will determine my fate,
whether i get my SAF scholarship or not..
May Allah Bless Those Going For Today..
Amin...

6th April 2008

2008-04-06T06:32:00.000-07:00

hey.
how have you guys been doing?

sorry i didn't blog for the past few days.
was down for the Affirmation Ceremony.

Friday,
had to report to HQ at 1200.
but met Shima,Elfie and Fang Xiang at Macdonalds.
HOWEVER,
MET DEAR before i went there.
hahah.
gave her a hug before i go..
then,
reached HQ at about 11 plus.
got my SBO ready.
after that,
went to SIS.
to our horror,
the freaking tower wasn't ready yet when we reached there.
so,
we wasted our freaking time doing nothing..
some of us slept.
i kept myself awake.
overall only did the rehearsal ONCE..
crashed at HQ NCC..
and slept at about 0200.

Saturday,
was the official day.
did one more rehearsal..
and,
fireworks was to be attached on my left leg.
hahah.
lol.
when the whole thing started,
damn,
it was the most unforgettable experience ever!
roping down with the fireworks..
and people cheering..

the whole thing ended about 1700.
washed up and headed off to my aunt's house..
i was really worn out after the whole day..

but definitely,
it was a moment not to be forgotten.

I'm truly honoured to serve under the Rappelling Team for NCC Affirmation Ceremony 2008
Alpha Bravo Charlie!

2nd April 2008

2008-04-01T20:09:00.001-07:00

wow!
the month of april is here..
haha

yesterday had Rappelling Training @ HQ NCC.
wah!
the canvas was kind of slippery..
making it difficult for me to walk down..

however,
i was rappelling in the centre lane,
WHICH HAS NO BLOODY CANVAS AT ALL!
whoo hoo!
did heli-rappelling.
DAMN IT WAS FUN!!
haha..
in addition,
i'm doing rappelling with my SBO, Helmet and M16 rifle.
hahaha..

so those guys who are going for the Affirmation Ceremony,
watch out for me!
i'm doing the rappelling solo!
YAY!

29th March 2008

2008-03-29T06:21:00.000-07:00

today was quite okay.
started off with a run around my estate after doing my prayers.
two rounds.
lol.
however,
i knocked out after that.
hahah...

then,
went out with my family to my grandma's house.
haha.
Wak Yan was barbecuing satay,
and the scent can be smelt from downstairs.
hahahahahah..
yeah,
was a hearty meal alright.
because before we went there,
we ate at Banquet for Lunch.
gosh!

dear's at Johore today,
just going shopping with her family.
hope she comes back hope safely.

11 days more to THAT day.
the day that will determine the fate of me.
i've been working out now..
hope it'll all pay off for the next 11 days.
=)

And,
I WANNA TAKE UP AIKIDO!
:P

27th March 2008

2008-03-27T08:24:00.000-07:00

sorry for not blogging lately.
nothing much happened for the past few days.
and i'm like getting lazy to update now. =)

anyway,
recent updates.

Firstly,
LOVE MY DEAR LOADS!
haha..
this happened on tuesday.
met her at the park after my meeting at school..
really sorry for the 'love bites' dear.
i tried to fend off most of the mosquitoes right?
;)
even though it was only for a few hours,
at least it means a lot to me.

anyway,
wednesday morning..
went to CMPB @ Depot Road.
went out at 0730.
what time did i reach there?
1000hrs.
That's one freaking long ride there.
seriously had no choice but to take up the JPSDS.
since financially ( in terms of poly fees ),
NO ONE CAN HELP US....
so might as well take the scholarship up.
in return,
i have to serve 5 years in the Army,
inclusive of NS..
dang it!
hope i achieve to be an Officer.
no.
i MUST BE!

well,
as for today,
went for IMT.
thought that only me, Zuib and Syazwan.
turns out,
Malia, Basirah,Raudah,Fang Xiang and Zhen Ming came down.
hahahahahah.
boarded the bus.
the driver was really one friendly person.
CARRY ON! =)
when we arrived at the IMT Centre @ Nee Soon,
Xiao Wei and Zach were there too..
hahah..
it was okay lah.
90 cadets.
wasn't as bad as the 300 cadets that i had to do during
one of the IMT sessions.
after the whole thing,
the cadet officers asked me to eat dinner with them..
Zuib and Syazwan went off earlier..
hahah.
left me alone.
as i was saying,
we ate at Banquet @ AMK Hub.
hahaha..
then played at the arcade..
basketball-ed as usual.
then went off our own separate ways.
Me,FX, Raudah, Malia & Basirah..
went home via 969..
haha.
and i got to know that FX lives somewhere near my house.
HAHAHAHAH!
LOL
came back approximately about 10pm.

yeah,
well got to go now.
gotta wake up early for run..
bye

22nd March 2008

2008-03-22T02:34:00.001-07:00

man
is it chilly in here or is it just me?
hahah..

due to the heavy and COLD rain,
my house is starting to feel like a humongous refridgerator.
hahah..

well today woke up at 10 plus.
was a bit tired though.
but anyway,
did the usual stuff.
bathe,
eat,
sleep.

called dear first.
to wish her a sweet good morning =)
love her loads!

then Alina called.
haha!
finally!
talked about some stuff,
that is not supposed to be disclosed at all..
wakaka!

now,
in environments like these,
i really wished i'm hugging dear right now..
hope i get to meet her on Monday..

I MISS YOU!

21st March 2008

2008-03-21T05:04:00.000-07:00

Today was rather a boring day.
woke up early,
and headed off to my grandma's house at Simei.
There wasn't much to do.
So i just laze around,
using the laptop.

Went to the mosque for Friday Prayers.
met Danial there with his siblings.
hahahah.
=)
didn't see Arif M.
Anyway,
headed back to my grandma's house again.
AND AGAIN,
i laze around,
using the laptop.

currently now,
I'M STILL using the laptop.
hahah..

currently not in a good mood now..
because of what dear sms me.
about her leg pain.
she wants me to massage her leg,
but how can I?
haiz..
the way she says it,
it's as if i'm useless..
and helpless as well....
i can't even do anything to please her....
i don't know whether is it a joke or not...
but to me,
it isn't.

at times like this,
i just feel like killing myself now..
my life just had a small crack formed..
waiting for it to be sealed off.

20th March 2008

2008-03-19T19:39:00.000-07:00

sorry that i didn't update my blog.
busy with NCC as usual.

last Tuesday,
went down to HQ.
WAS supposed to be there for rappelling.
Ended up helping up for a while for Trainfire.
Then, went to Block 245 for the training.
hahah!
RAPPELLING TRAINING WAS SO DAMN COOL!
i did the walk and the bounce.
but the most COOLEST one is when,
Xiao Wei and Zarifah did the inverted rappel.
So stylo!
haha.
ended the training about 6pm.
and then i headed back home.

Yesterday,
had NCC training @ East Spring.
but before that,
had to take a photo for Speech Day..
hahah..
Miss Sim,
photographer..
hahah!
lol.
anyway,
some things happened during training.
made the Specs, me and Kamarul kind of pissed off..
whatever it is,
it's just life..
can't do anything about it..

Well yeah..
as for today,
ate breakfast at macdonalds.
and blogging now!
hahah..

alright,
got to go now..

17th March 2008

2008-03-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

today wasn't really of a bore..
woke up at about 10.30am.
haha!
i guess i was the last to wake up.
anyway,
ate breakfast.
and used the com.
guess what?
i'm now back to Red Alert 2.
hoho!
an old classic of RPG..
played until afternoon.
then i went out.
for what?
to buy FOOD!
at S11..
gosh!
it was much more of a fiesta actually.
eating this and that.
and i'm getting "fatter"
lol.
i hope not!